Hi ladies,
Just found out i failed my 3rd IUI attempt, haiz. Had a good cry just now to get the disappointment out of my system, wanna move on n look forward to trying again this month. Am probably going to give SO-IUI a shot this time.
Came across this beautiful poem on somebody's blog, made me cry (again), thought i will share it here:
There are women that become mothers without effort, without thought, without patience or loss and though they are good mothers and loved their children, I know I will be better.
I will be better not because of genetics or money or that I have read more books, but because I have struggled and toiled for this child. I have longed and waited. I have cried and I prayed. I have endured and planned over and over again.
Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation are those who have struggled to attain their dreams. I will notice everything about my child. I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore and discover, I will marvel at this miracle everyday for the rest of my life.
I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of my child, knowing that I can comfort, hold, and feed him and that I am not waking to take another tempuerature, pop another pill, take another shot, or cry tears of a broken dream. My dream will be crying for me!
I count myself lucky in a sense; that God has given me this insight, this special vision with which I will look upon my child that my friends will not see.
Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to or a child God leads me to, I will not be careless with my love.
I will be a better mother for all that I have endured. I am a better wife, a better aunt, a better daughter, neighbor, a friends and a sister because I have known pain.
And when others hurt around me I do not run from their pain in order to save myself ddiscomfort. I see it, mourn it, and join them in theirs. I listen. And even though I cannot make it better, I can make it less lonely.
Yes, we are wonderful people…but we will be even better mothers!