Hi ladies,
Sharon,my heart goes out to u.i failed my 1st attempt of IUI.if u have read my post,the reason i went for IUI is coz i'm sick & tired of hubby's tantrums & he knows how much i want a baby,& to some extent,i think he 'blackmails' me with that.so i tot how nice to try w/o having to have intercourse.juz pay money.it seems that since i've started on all the scans etc,hubby is realising having a baby requires co-operation.his attitude has since improved.
it's strange that all my plans seem to stop at the failed IUI.like i was planning how many times to try b4 IUI etc.maybe i had too much hope for the IUI,knowing the chances are not high anyway.
sometimes,after reading all ur posts,i feel consoled coz at least i O regularly.if hubby's swimmers not too strong,at least still have hope for IVF,coz they can select the stronger swimmers.if don't O well,it's more troublesome.
went for HSG yesterday,i cried coz i was so frustrated.appt at 8.45,waitied till 9.30,still waiting.had to get back to work coz i also have patients booked in,so i'm also in a rush.somemore on the brochure,they said not to be late.was abt not to do it,but if i miss this chance,then i have to wait till next mth coz yesterday was day 10.int he end,the radiologist was nice,he managed to do it for me immediately (well,of course,since he has finished with the previous patient).there was a bit of discomfort,but the most uncomfortable part i feel (of all these scans,treaments etc) is the insertion of things into the vagina.i really hate it.it's not painful,but sometimes sore.when the dye went in,there was further discomfort,i teared.it was not so much due to pain.i asked myself: y am i putting myself thru' all these? does hubby actually appreciate? if he did,he will try harder naturally too & not give me all the shit.well,in the end,i sort of figured out my problem.couldn't get thru' to my right uterus.i have a bi-furcated uterus,guess that's making conception more difficult.but the consolation is at least the left side fallopian tube & uterus is fine.
i'm so sick & tired already.I think i'll try naturally a few more times,then go for IVf.
talking abt attending bb showers,b'day etc.i managed to dodge 2 of these.hehe...well,it's worse for me coz i had a stillbirth b4.so it's double whammy.i was juz thinking to myself: it's so quick,it's almost a yr since the stillbirth already.sob sob.anyway,both invitations came on the same day.1 of hubby's friends even wanted to use our BBQ pit to celebrate her daughter's b'day.WALAU! talk abt consideration.in the end,i'm glad hubby turned her down coz he said he didn't feel like entertaining.the 2nd one,luckily,we have a wedding to attend.hehe...so i managed to dodge it.
talking abt hubby's friends,so frustrating.they have NO TACT at all.no wonder they are not my friends.my friend juz came by the other day to pass me cakes for her little boy's 1st mth.she has been thru' a lot too,& she's so sweet,she will follow my progress (she's a doc,so she knows more),ask me how it is etc.& i feel really happy for her.my other friends were surprised when i visited this friend's baby coz they tot i couldn't cope.they kept asking abt me,asked if i was okie etc.compare that to hubby's friends! MILES APART! c how they even ask to use our BBQ pit,1 even offered to give me pregnancy test kit coz his wife is pregnant,he doesn't need it anymore.
okie,it's back to work for me now.i've been MIA for a while coz i've been quite bz.in the meantime,those who are still TTC,u're not the only one out there.we can spur & support each other.