Hi muski,
were u the one who mentioned hubby not very supportive? or men cannot understand wat we go thru'.SO TRUE! men will be men.i used to say hubby not supportive.were u the one who said hubby asked how much IUI will cost? it's either u or Sharon.aiyah,i don't reply everyday,so many post per day.i'm also confused.
anyway,here is my experience.after stillbirth,hubby acted like he's so 'cool',nothing happened,he can take it like a man.he forced me to go to babies' b'day party etc.i felt like shit,like a knife pierced thru' my heart.but i was quite surprised he's acting like he can take it.this went on for many mths.i was recently that i managed to get him to 'confess' how he really felt.he was no different fr me.that piercing pain,that longing for a baby.now that he has acknowledged his feelings,i feel we r back to normal.coz i told him if he wants to go for all these parties,he can go ahead.i will not put myself thru' all these.i'll rather stay away fr his friends.to my surprise,he has been staying away fr his friends too.i guess if ur friends have kids,& u r longing for kids,& if u hang ard them,they will go on & on abt kid's stuff,u don't feel on the same wavelength as them.so i told him maybe we need to make new friends.
i myself m paying for all these treatment too.worst still,i'm on commission basis,so i need to work.it's so stressful rushing to & fr hospital,doing scans,but trying to squeeze in enough time for work.
last thurs,went for scan (day 12),NO FOLLICLES! i got a shock out of my life.for the past 2 cycles,follicle seen on day 12 already.to my surprise,follicle is 18mm today! YEAH!!!! & it's fr my left ovary,my good side.so i'm trying IUI again.
i cannot tell my hubby this,but i have a feeling once i've gotten into the NUS postgrad,which I have & i'm very happy abt,surely get pregnant.this is god's way of testing me.& also making fun of me.i'll be so bz with my postgrad,i can only imagine the craziness in my life if i get pregnant.but i'm prepared.bring it on,i say! hehe....for once,hubby actually asked,"wat happens if u get pregnant now?" wow! he has a reaction! he's afraid i'll put having babies on hold coz of my postgrad.i told him,i'll juggle both.
i think i'll go c the marine parade TCM on thurs.going for IUI on wed! fingers crossed.juz had Ovidrel jab today.so funny.nurse said jab on abdomen.i was shocked! need to show her my fats! haha.anyway,it was bearable.i tot those jabs on the abdomen are only for those ppl going thru' IVF.the amt of liquid in the jab was little,& the bore of the needle was small,compared to GonylF.that one,i tot was more painful.& so much to inject.surprisingly,after the abdomen jab,there wasn't even any bleeding.amazing.the nurse asked me if i was okie after the jab.i was absolutely fine,but i think i was more shocked by the fact i had to be jabbed on the abdomen.
okie ladies,press on.we shall all do it together.i always say,wat doesn't kill us only makes us stronger.we have been thru' miscarriages,me,a stillbirth,it was certainly difficult,but if we don't try,there will be no chance at all.