Wish: The business world is tough, so always remember that being too kind to others means being unkind to yourself. Always get a deposit, no deposit, don't start work. I know a home business that does mani + pedi = she will always collect $20 via bank transfer and if the customer does not show up for appointment, the money is forfeited. Just state it clearly in the terms and conditions on your blog, because if they are sincere about the purchase, they will not disagree.
I know it's hard, but u really have to stop thinking about the lost girls. They are definitely in good hands now. It's tough, but for sure they will not come back. If you make your live miserable by hanging on to it, it will affect yourself and your loved ones, and the future children you want to have
Think of it this way, the body gets rid of defective ones, so it's better that they were gone then, rather than to have them come to this world, and then take them away -- i think that would be a greater torture.
I personally feel it because I actually had another brother who passed away at 4 - i was 10 then. Till now I still miss him, and I wake up crying sometimes, because he would have been 23 this year... but i try not to think about it too often, because I know my parents will be very affected... it was the first time i saw my dad cry too -- when the nurse at the emergency room came out and told us "sorry". It was just like in the dramas, but drama == life... I really really miss him.