Thank you girls, for all your comforting words. It always makes me feel better to talk to you all here, like I have some support behind me.
ypg, I have nothing to base on so I am not sure if it is right for my HB to do that, but now that I have talked to you all, I know that he is not right to do that to me. Yeah, he told me to stand there while he ranted at me, and when I didn't listen to him, and continued to move about doing my stuff, he was all the more madder. I did tell him that I felt upset about his behaviour but it did not seem to help.
He can only keep saying that I am being rebellious. I do not have anyone in my family who can help me on this though.
SarahMay, I just felt that his temper is getting worse and worse and the way he let it out is worse too. Like you say, the emotional and mental abuse seem to be getting worse. Now, he seems to get angry at every single thing and even make negative remarks about my family every time he is angry like "your damn family" or "your idiotic friends", which makes me really upset. Then, when he is in a good mood, he's really totally alright. It kinda makes me scared as I won't know when he will next blow up. Yep, I continued with the AWARE counselling, hoping to retain some sense of sanity. Perhaps, it wll be a good thing when I return to work.
Hi LC, I had hoped that things would get better when I next post here after a long hiatus but sadly, it is not to be so. I also feel a lack of respect in him for me and sometimes, I wonder how long I can bear with it.
What kind of something big?
miow, this was the first time he commanded me like this, though there were other instances of commanding. But I believe this would not be the only time. I just don't want my child to follow his example and command me like this in future!
momopanda, I don't dare to talk to my family member as I don't want words to get to my parents which may make matters worse. Now, I try to talk to him about our fight the day after, after a night's sleep. But unfortunately, he always failed to see my point of view and can only insist that I am being rebellious and that my counselling is doing more harm than good. Thanks for the offer, I may really need your listening ear!
Hi Bigtoes, thanks for the hug.