paradox,
Yes, I remember you. And so not looking forward to see you here too.
I didn't do any real confinement in the end. Only drank essence of chicken (pathetic, right?) and ate some ginger meat for 1 or 2 days. As for chicken soup, when I eat chicken rice, I'll hv the FOC soup (lagi pathetic). I didn't do any confinement for my 1st M/C either.....
fairie,
I understand how you feel completely and now I feel like crying too. The first time is always the hardest. People who have never gone through this will never understand.
Give ourself time to grieve properly and try/learn to move on. It will not be easy and it may take some months, perhaps even until the next time we conceive again, but we will -try-. But during this difficult time,
we will not be alone. There will be people/things/situations around us that will help us to cope, whether we know it or not.
During my 1st M/C, I was actively attending Bible Studies, and we were then at the Book of Job which talks about this good man, rich and successful with many children and how he lost everything overnight and became alone. It addresses questions on suffering, though not all are answered, talks about how Job copes with this suffering and how he ultimately remained faithful and trusting, though he has all this questions of "Why me?!". So while I was in my own "personal hell", I know I am really not alone as I am blessed with all these experiences around me that helped me to cope.
In my recent M/C, my boy is the cheerful imp in his own happy world who will make me laugh with his antics and shower me with many "I love mommy". And I realised that this round, he is my blessing. I am very grateful and appreciate having him around more than ever, especially during my 1+ wk MC.
We will learn from all these experiences in the process. We will learn to grieve, we will learn to move on and emerge stronger, we will learn to appreciate even deeper the fragility of life, and when we are finally blessed with a new one, we will be even more grateful.
In every "bad" thing that happened, we will see some good that will come out of it. None of these experiences will go to waste. Take care, youself and everyone here!