Hi, mummy. I agreed with Bek, most of the things she did for her hubby I did also....(except for me to hang out with friends - no time with 3 kids and no helper) - yet dun see any changes. If i have been the very naggy wife than my marriage won't last for so long till now. Yes I admitted, i am just a normal human, i did nagged abt 4 times a year... is that too much? Mainly to ask him to try and spend more time with us , try to build his bonding with kids, am I wrong? I endured quietly for him to go out with all his friends, ex-classmates (primary to JC), ex-colleagues (from local to overseas) and also clients .... all till dawn.....And sometimes all these thingy can be continue for one FULL month. He claimed that all these are necessary networking that he need for his career and need my support and understanding so I (close eyes, ears and mouth ....endure quietly) we do hug but not that offen, with him holding my hand and sleep beside me, i am content, i feel i am loved by him......but, then, his affair exposed. Shattered all my trust, hope and dream. I believe I am like everones, wish for endless, faithful, honest, blissful, everlasting love and marriage ....a happy family. But all failed... I am not good in expressing myself both in words or in personal..... just know that everydays now is heartaches and meaningless.....for me and kids. I can't move on so easily as I am not alone but with 3 kids.. I can feel my kids pain and loneliness too, my elder boy is more reserve to himself while my eldest daughter more passionate, spotted her cried couple of times discreetly and my youngest 3 yo only told me to hold his hand and sleep and repeatly ask me 'mummy do u love me? papa in out in out the house dun love me ... do u love me ? ' I can feel his insecure for love... but how can i provide complete and unconditional love to my dearest kids when I myself is so hurt.......currently, am trying my very very best to give alll love and attention now to kids and no more....