Hi Ladies,
I have been a silent reader for a long while and finally decided to join the forum...
I guess maternal instincts really kicked in after I got married and I feel all ladies' here de highs and lows when there is a good news or a disappointing one. I was so happy for hopeful_mum when I saw that she had succeeded in conceiving.
Since I got married, I kept track of my periods and I usually have cycles ranging in 30+ days.. like sometimes 31, sometimes 33, sometimes 34 or 35. The more I keep track, the more I am eager to start my engine but we kind of agree we will honeymoon for awhile first. A few months back, my cycle started getting longer n haywired, dunno issit I think about baby until very stress. So my previous two cycles were 50+ and 40+ days. So far, I am not using OPK or BBT but I used an app to roughly keep track of my cycle. In Feb, my period came on 18th and we BD on 1st and 2nd Feb. I understand that we may tend to O 14 days (just standard textbook answer I got from internet) before period date though may not be the case for all but I guess I missed the boat in Feb.
In March, I followed my app and BD a few dates but since my last two periods were kind of out of the norm, the fertility dates given by the app may be wrong. By right, if I followed what is given by the app, I should O on sat (again, textbook answer) and I BD on the fri and tue before. I wanted to BD on sat n sun too but hubby is busy during the weekends and very tired so we didn't.
Just now I go toilet, I saw some spots and I wiped, got reddish also. I am confused and scared and nervous. I feel like cry and I don't know who to talk to. I don't want to get my hopes high but yet cant help but feel disappointment. People around me also get pregnant rather easily, I don't really want to discuss and add more stress to myself. I just secretly hope it is implantation bleeding.. but even if yes, I also worried that it is a bad sign and that my tai not wen.
I am just very confused and so sorry for the long post as I feel maybe you ladies will understand. Thanks.