Hello ladies!
I haven't posted for a long time.no,i haven't abandoned anyone here,i've juz been super bz.
Shiseru,
u were asking abt me...i juz found out yesterday (last day of the yr!) that sis-out-law is preg.well,luckily i found out in 2009.let 2010 be a better yr for me.i told hubby he's the only idiot who doesn't know sis is preg.i think he's quite affected by it.coz he told me he doesn't want to know/care.his dad told him his sis may be preg.WTF??? if u're preg,u're preg,if u're not,u're not.juz test with HPT & u're know,right? i was guessing coz of her husband's reaction (like being very concerned even when she goes to the toilet),& a few mths ago,she kept pressing her blouse over her tummy.who would do that to show off a big tummy,right? that time still not buldging yet.but unless i have a super flat tummy,i won't be doing that! i asked hubby then,he said no.so looks like he really didn't know until yesterday when a loud mouth cousin asked when sis-out-law was going for a scan.& she said,"TMC,private gynae."maybe i'm too sensitive,but it seems like taking a snipe at me coz i always go to gov hospital.walau! i'm high risk,& i trust that NUH & KKH both have one of the best neonatal units in s'pore.nvm,i have a fantastic gynae & i trust my choice coz all my doc friends also go to her.& i think hope_4_bb will agree with me that the staff at the women's clinic at NUH are really very helpful & warm.in difficult times like wat i'm going thru',a bit of concern fr other ppl goes a long way.
so i'm telling myself,now i must think positive.nvm abt sis-out-law,it's all abt me now.ME,ME,ME! i must be selfish.if i keep thinking abt her being preg,i will feel very bad.& one thing i can't help thinking of is how our babies will be constantly compared if we deliver next yr.but i tell myself again,i can provide all my love & care for my baby,& i will give my baby everything i can, & that's enough.for me,gender of the baby is not important,as long as i have a kicking,screaming,healthy baby.i juz think abt the times i can take my kiddy to the zoo,swimming,overseas,to the playground,all the cute clothes & that is enough to get me going.it's very very tough,but i tell myself i can do it.it's all in the mind.if i don't help myself,no one is going to be able to help me,so i must think positive.
& i think juz being positive is a GREAT way to start 2010! i was juz telling hubby,we can buy lots of tigger soft toys for our tiger bub! hehe
