i feel you..i had a hetrotopic pregnancy (1 inside & 1 outside the F tube) long story short..in the end i had 1 to remove 1 tube as it was ruptured. that was my first pregnancy after trying for 2 years. i had to go thru a D&C AND a emergency surgery to remove the ruptured tube as it can be life threatening. i was lucky and i strike my first IVF. during the first 10 weeks was a nightmare too as i had spotting and i am at A&E every single week. i tot i was going to lose this beanie too and every week to the gynae just send my heartbeat going faster. as i lose my first due to no heartbeat at week 7. 1 week you hear the heartbeat and next week u dont hear it anymore. i think you have to relax and keep an open mind..stress wont do you any good. when you are ready (physically & mentally), you should try again. always talk to your beanie..ask beanie to stick to you. things will get better in 2nd tri and you will get to relax and enjoy the pregnancy. jiayou!