Hi all,
I am new to this forum. Just had a mc, did a d/c last thurs, baby found to have no heartbeat at 9 weeks, even though there was one at 6 weeks.
bit of a shock for both me and my bf as we did not expect such a thing to happen.
Even though the pregnancy was unplanned, we have already decided to get married, and have already booked the bridal and hotel packages. Even the wedding date has been confirmed and both our families know and have given us their blessings.
My boyfriend was extremely excited to be a daddy, it was me who was having doubts, always complaining how a baby can ruin my career and social life. Finally, I accepted the marriage proposal and got myself mentally prepared to be a mummy. I was even planning to sell away my car and take a step back from work, to concentrate on my pregnancy and being a first time mummy.
Then, as quietly as god gave us his gift, it was also quietly taken away from us. It was heart breaking, not knowing how to save or protect your own baby's life. How did its heartbeat stop? I spent the whole night before my d/c praying for a miracle, seeing my bf cried for the first time was just as painful. I know he's also trying very hard to be strong, as he needs to take care of me and support me as well.
right now, we are once again at a crossroad of our lives. We decided to postpone our wedding, as we wanted to get a place of our own first.
Being pregnant once made me realise that being a mummy is so much more valuable than my career or my social life. My boyfriend says, now I can enjoy my life again, but if given a choice, I would not, I want my baby back, I want our baby back, I want to build a happy family with my bf, who has been standing by me throughout these tough times.
Currently, I am doing a mini confinement at home. really realised that life goals have changed, I wanna ttc again soon...After reading all the threads, I am very encouraged by all of ur brave ladies out there who wanna be mummies or who are mummies. =)