hamasaki,decimalpoint,odie,folic,lyn, thks for support. i was so upset abt my boss the entire weekend and cried a lot. much better today. important is get my health back. i will go back to work first and see how it goes. if i can't tahan, i will quit.
sum, it's ok to have the mood swings. i have my moments too. just this morning, i don't know how long i stared at the photo of lina ng and her baby boy in the newspapers and cried. and then the beckhams got another son! wah, they like want baby then make and then succeed easily!
the important thing is we tell ourselves that we are strong and we must look ahead. we are here to support and strengthen one another. if you really need to, talk to someone. i think a trained counsellor will help in your healing. do give it a try if you need to.
my family members also did not console me but i think our parents and siblings show their concern in their own ways. think chinese families are just not used to showing affections and care openly. like our mothers cooking 'bu' food for us. my father, bro and sis-in-law never said anything too. but they seemed to be more concern through the ways they behave and talk to me.
i think it's good to just cry it out. i understand abt putting a brave front. i tried to be brave but when we are really down, we must let it out. don't be shy abt crying in front of your family members and frens. this time round, i told my frens abt my m/c. when they visited me or called me, i couldn't help but cry while talking to them.
my mum also tell everyone abt my m/c. and now, everyone knows that i have recurrent m/c. i no longer feel uncomfortable abt them knowing. rather, it may be a good thing. the kaypoh ones will know that i am trying to have children and have difficulty in it. at least, they will stop asking! the really concern ones will visit and console me. although they kept saying that i must have worked too hard (their generation will never understand the scientific reasons for m/c), i don't feel offended. i take it that they are showing their care in their own way.
it's not easy. each of us takes different time to heal. do take care and post your thoughts here. i really feel it's a good way to let my thoughts and feelings out.
hi sereneoh, glad to have you join us. i won't recommend you my first gynae. he's a good and experienced doc but he lacks emotional empathy. i am used to him by now but he doesn't give patients the emotional support if we need to. i am now seeing dr christopher chen (the ivf specialist). he's ok so far. professional but ex. doesn't speak much but his nurses are very kind and gentle and i feel comfortable with him so far. i will continue with him for the time being and hopefully, something good will turn out from it.
lyn, it's beyond our control on having a 'suitable' baby. when i first started ttc during my 'innocent' period, i planned to have a monkey baby. now i thought i will have a rooster baby. and now, given that i can only try 3 mths later, it's going to be a doggie baby if all turn well! i learn not to expect too much. i shall wait for the day that God will send me my gift. you jia you and relax, and i really pray that you'll get a rooster baby!
where are you heading for honeymoon?
I think the bonding between the couple after such an event is really amazing. We learnt to rely on each other and see the 'true' side of each other. Something that I really treasure. btw, crayonshinchan is one of my fav cartoon characters... i have the soft toy on my bed!
