Thanks Ron. The journey is so hard. I feel I don't have my husband's support. When I told him the news, all he said was, ok. No words of comfort or even a hug even when I asked for it (several times). I feel so sick of all this. To top it off i had to visit my MiL the day after BFN (cuz I avoided her for the whole of tww). She asked me, "Are you two doing work at night or not?" She probably saw I was about to cry already so quickly changed topic. After 20 min, asked me the exact same question again. Granted, she doesn't know we are doing IVF, I really wish people wld stop putting pressure on us.
My hubby even asked if we can don't try IVF a second time, and just be childless. I really cannot, cannot imagine that kind of life. I begged him to let us try until govt grant runs out. And told him honestly, if we stop trying before that, I will lose hope in everything.
I am so depressed right now and I don't know what to do. So glad that at least there are ppl here who can lend a listening ear or else I will go mad already. Every day I got to self regulate, put on a happy smile for my hubby and all to see, but really, inside I am just feeling like shit. Maybe need to see a counsellor.