i actually am caught in a dilemma ... regarding work ... first off, works so so ... well the pay's not too bad as well but i don't see myself working in this environment long term... the company is aware of my thinking ... in fact the COO spoke to me few weeks back to ask if i was still keen to carry on or i want to resign ... she felt a bit sad because she was the one who interviewed me ... and felt i would be in there for the long haul ... and she actually offered me on the spot ...
anyway, cut story short, i've been harping on being a SAHM to hubby... he's not 100% supportive but he's also aware of my job situation ... hubby feels for the work i'm doing and getting paid what i'm paid is actually a good deal ... but i feel i want to be there for our child ... she's growing up really fast ... she's 4 this year ... i don't want to miss out on her childhood ...
we are in the process of selling our old place and buying a new place nearer MIL ... after doing calculations, we are still going to get a bank loan and hubby feels that i will need to work to cover a part of it ... because his cpf contribution will barely cover it ... and we don't want to get into a situation where we have to contribute cash ... we don't mind wiping out cpf but no touching our cash ... actually if we take 30yr loan can work out ... but hubby doesn't want 30 ... max is 25 yr loan ...
that said, back to my job.. hahaha! well, i've always had a passion for cooking and baking ... also with kids ... so, my dilemma is, should i leave and pursue my passion where the pay is lower ... or stay and not worry about finances ... actually, for baking, i understand the pay is low ... but it's my passion (for now lol!) and for teaching kids, i did enquire and i need certification which i do not have ... so it's a matter of if im selected they will sponsor me or i go do private course and apply again ...
so long story eh ... but just need to get it off my chest ... too many nosy parkers in fb
also if preggers in the midst of all the change, i'm not affected but i do think hubby would prefer for me to get maternity benefits ... sigh sigh sigh ... decisions decisions ...
actually if it were up to me, i would just leave ... serve my notice ... but i have to think about the new house ... and hubby ... in the past, i wouldn't care 2 hoots and just tender ... but now with other responsibilities it is quite a headache ....