Thank you all mummies for your kind words and support... really... im glad to have this forum to turn to when i need a "listening ear". Really thank you.
I feel much better le... and also had a good talk with hubby. I told him that as a mum, my heart hurts the most to see my child hurt, so i was very angry and offended when MIL say such things to baby... as tho' im ill-treating HER son... pls lor... im the mum not her. He agreed that his mum shdn't say those things in front of Reagan. He said his mum not good with words, but she shd tok to me and not through the baby mah. Haiz... actually my MIL is not that bad.. just dunno why when it comes to issues with baby, the 2 of us cannot see eye to eye.
The matter has blown over "for now".. but
i seriously dunno when will be the next episode. As some of u know, there's just this communication prob between us... cannot connect. Yet hubby wans this idealistic family in which we can be a happy family, DIL and MIL close like mother and daughter... but it's diferent lor... no matter how he thinks that his mum dotes on me... it's different... she will get offended if i raise any issue... like that call treat me like own daughter meh?
Then hubby will start to be demanding, wanting me to communicate more, complain less... so nowadays i have learnt to close 2 eyes and ears and zip my mouth... dun raise any issue liao... but hubby insist that i shd voice it out and not keep everything inside and shd try to tok to his mum more. So at times i tried to crack conversation like ask her how to remove the fats from the minced pork, etc... then MIL cannot answer me.. so i say i will ask my mum. After that i told her what my mum said then next day, she teach me how to do it (as tho' she knows all along and i know nuts). When i told hubby that, he say the way i tok to MIL is like teacher asking student a question that's why his mum scared to answer me... what the??? I really dunno how to live up to his expectations.. comment wrong, keep quiet wrong, crack conversation tone oso wrong... i'll go mad i think... think sometimes men think we shd just adapt to his family and way of living in a blink of an eye. My hubby can still say i shd be very adaptable and even said i have changed.. last time im not like that.. i told him "visiting and living together are different matters". But men dun get it...
Catherine,
Thanks. Yah, u r right that she's very possessive... sometimes i will try to come home earlier then bring baby out for a stroll... but sometimes i think MIL will get more possessive and began to question where im going, why leh.. etc... she knows i dun liek to answer this types of questions. Usually i just say bring him out to walk or go my mum's place. I was shocked when she began to question "why im bringing baby out". I just looked at her and say go out lor.
coolsnow,
Thanks for the advice. I shd just think more abt baby and not think too much on what she might do. Im planning to send baby to playgroup when he's 18 mths.. hubby not keen on the idea.. but i will try to convince him.. i dun wan baby to be with MIL whole day lor...
Celyn,
Thanks.
Yuuri,
Thanks for the encouragement.
Yah lor.. what to do? Grandparents really spoil their grandchildren. I wun interfere if they wanna dote on him.. but i wun accept them interfering in my disciplining of my child.
happy_mummy,
Thanks... u r right.. every time i quarrel with hubby i really felt very lousy... actually i tried to 'ren', close eyes, ears and mouth liao... but this time i exploded cos i was really too pissed with the way and the things she said to baby. Sigh.. but u r right... in the end it's machiam my fault lor cos she's the elder and i shdn't be rude to her. bleah...
krex,
thanks! Yah, cooled down liao...
I try to get hubby to go out with just baby and me.. but sometimes he'll wan to have dinner with his parents during weekends, reason being during weekdays they dun eat dinner at the same time and only on weekends they will go out and sit together to have meals. Sigh... :S
Yume,
Thanks for the encouragement!
I sure hope my son will not prefer his grandma over me.. i'll be devastated if that happens. Haiz... i think i have to accept the fact that i married a family.. not just a man.
hfgaga,
hahaa yah lor... different frequency... she dun understand what im saying... i dun understand what she's saying too. U r right! I really dun wan my kid to become spoiled brat..
msapple,
Thanks for the advice and sharing tips on parenting. As first time mum, im really still trial and error a suitable way to discipline my child. I agree with u that smacking his hands and face no use cos he still does it... actually at first i will just remove his hands and say no to him... it's eventually the parent-in-law and hubby who kept telling baby "cannot put hand in ur mouth, mummy beat, very good." And hubby was the one who started smacking and say it's a good method as baby seems to understand pain and will not do it. So i followed suit... in the end, i get blamed. I've also been reading up on books to understand more abt parenting. But sometimes really confused... is being firm in saying no enuff? When to use carrot and when to use rod? I believe most of us were brought up with the rod tactic by our parents. Im really scared that i can't discipline my child properly and he becomes a spoiled brat. The responsibility of parenthood is so huge... i told hubby.. i think 1 child is enuff...
hisstory,
Thanks for the advice. I really envy u for having such a supportive hubby. But i know mine has a difficult time trying to balance between wife and mum too... just that i dun understand why he can become quite irrationale when it comes to issues between MIL and me. I did tok to him again today and tell him why i was so upset.. he understood but told me not to hold it against his mum cos he knows his mum loves to tok yet dunno what she's toking at times. There was akward moments today, MIL and I ignored each other but during dinner i tried to pass food to her and just let it be... just hope she wun be like last time.. at first okay.. then suddenly next day show me black face.
Vern,
Thanks... yes, im trying to go out for evening walks with baby whenever i can... but MIL is starting to question me where and why.. which i hate!
hashisan,
Thanks for the encouragement! Heheee... i dun think i'll want another talk with MIL. I tried it before.... and it led to black faces.... no matter how nicely i tried to say it... MIL will never be as forgiving and understanding as our own mum. I've learnt this lesson the hard way... so i learned to close eyes, ears and mouth.
Sorry for the long post. Really thanks for all ur kind words and encouragement.