Lynn,
I sooooo understand how you are feeling... I was afraid that my emtions will show when i m back at work so i started my baby with nanny 2 wks earlier so that i can weed out any problems should it happen. Hmm, yes i believe its seperation anxiety. I think its impt to start early with the caregiver. I am like you, dun feel that anyone is as competent as me to take care of my baby untill i started with my nanny. When she solved my baby's day nap problem and other stuff then i started to really trust that she is competent. But given a choice i will still want to take care of her myself, my way. I also keep lots of baby's photos in my phone and view them while i express milk. It helps with achieving the letdowns and i feel less gulity coz for those times i m thinking about her nia not thinking of anything related to work...
I sooooo understand how you are feeling... I was afraid that my emtions will show when i m back at work so i started my baby with nanny 2 wks earlier so that i can weed out any problems should it happen. Hmm, yes i believe its seperation anxiety. I think its impt to start early with the caregiver. I am like you, dun feel that anyone is as competent as me to take care of my baby untill i started with my nanny. When she solved my baby's day nap problem and other stuff then i started to really trust that she is competent. But given a choice i will still want to take care of her myself, my way. I also keep lots of baby's photos in my phone and view them while i express milk. It helps with achieving the letdowns and i feel less gulity coz for those times i m thinking about her nia not thinking of anything related to work...