tracy, dun get so dishearted.. thing will get better as time goes by..
hunniepot, nix also has birth mark at the back of his neck.. i was worried wat's that.. till it confirm by pd is birthmark.. but kinda big patch.. but heard as bb grows older, the mark will be faded..
recently, i feel something wrong about myself.. i dunno wat happened to me.. will keep yelling, screaming at nix and beat his bum if he refuse to sleep at nite.. like last nite, i keep yelling at him, plead him to sleep and keep spank his butt.. i was so tired and yet he keep making noise till almost 3am.. it is not my norm behaviour and i dunno why am i behave like tat.. this is the 2nd time i behave this way.. i sms my hubby, telling him i dun want nixon.. ask him to give nix to someone else.. the 1st time i believe like tat was worst.. i'm thinking of getting something to stuff his mouth to stop his cry.. or just throw him out of the window, i just dun wanna hear him cry.. it is scary thought and i actually have all these thoughts.. day time i'm fine, even when he cries.. it is only at nite, i actually have these thought.. my hubby wants me to break free from bb for a while but i dun wanna be apart with bb..