sweatcorn,
shanice looks so lovely and sweet!!!
u must be enjoying her company...
me too, really love to be with my kids. Joelle is walking all over the place now and at times the siblings even start to snatch the same toys etc...
tigger,
when I just gave birth to J, also really wanna have no.3 soon. But as the days goes by, I slowly realise the "hardship" involved... especially since we dun have a maid... going anywhere on our own is almost not possible becos both children can be wailing away for attention or milk or a car ride.... or J had pooed outside, and I am busy changing diaper but S will wandering away or I am carrying J and S will be cranky and insist on pulling her down... list goes on. It din kill my desire to want a no.3 but it does cause me to re think whether a close age gap is right for us. Of course seeing 2 cute little toddlers running around and playing is heartwarming.... but through the last one year... I think it was the toughest time for hb and me in our 7 years marriage. S is sticky to me and I felt I had ended up not spend much quality time with J all these while.... I felt that's part of the reason she is slightly delayed in speech... till now still dun call anyone clearly... and my mum is busy with the two in the day... and J ended up watching too much tv than I like. I always felt some tinge of guilt towards her. My hb took all J's night feeding since she was 2.5 months old till now and it does tired him out. Financial wise... will be more tight since I need to multiply by 2... and if there is no.3, then multiply by 3.... I am endeavouring to be fair to them. Then we start to have to do more maths like budgetting and distributing the resources for both of them to attend adequate enrichment and yet to save enough for rainy days at the same time. Dun mention those smaller things like doing without any holidays for years though I do really need one... since I always feel the money can be better spent on the children. As they grow older, I need to cater enough finances to provide them with as much opportunity as I can help to nurture them.... eg. though sending S to LW preschool, we wanna send him to suzuki violin class cos he is literally asking for the lesson every day. All these... could be easily achieved with one kid, but with 2, the cost double, that's still ok but with no.3, its a bit tough... so more hard thinking on what to compromise...
oh I just look back and that's really a long essay I just posted
just some of my recent thoughts... anyway.. I am still vv keen on having no.3... prob end of next year... sad that a bigger age gap may mean that no.3 wont be close to S&J but bo bian... no one is supportive of me having no.3 ... my hb also neutral. But its difficult to change my mind ... unless situation such as ... somehow S really developed some special talent in some areas and I need to developed it further.... then maybe I will drop that idea. Afterall, no.3 is still a dream now, my main responsibility is to take very good care of the two that God had already blessed me with.
