Holidaygal: i was like you. But somehow i manage to get out of it. I was feeling sad and tears may fell even just watching a tv drama. Seeing people on tv saying they are preggie and how healthy it is. I can cry. Although i know their preggie is an act. That is how fragile i was. But after sending my bb gal spirit off, i felt better.
I am a buddhist, so i believe in spirit, like the rest of the ladies did mention here.if you are someone who holds joss sticks, visit a temple, pray for your little one, send them off dont stay with you. Its something u will feel better after doing it.if you are someone who visit church, go to a church pray to your lord, ask for forgiven and send your little one off.
Above i think one of them mention to visit a temple to help you with your bb spirit. For me, i did it the expensive way.
Its all up to you. Until now i had not cry a single bit after the ceremony i did for my bb gal. And i felt good till now. Im working hard on my body to get better, get in shape for the next one.
For your acne, one point can be you are heaty. Another is your hormones are still changing. To judge if you are no longer a cold bodied, if you are always feeling sweaty or warm in or out air con room, no cold feet and hands. Acne outbreak, yellow urine ( if you dont drink water). Those are what u can take note off. U can try exercising during your 3rd week of dnc. Just a 30mins walk or jog. Just make yourself sweat. You can really gain the energy back and you will not think much about your bb anymore.
If my bb gal is still around, she should be about 5months old in my tummy now le.. But well, we have to learn to let go. Think about it, your bb is not growing well therefore it couldnt survive, just like mine.
My doc told me, this kind of case is unknown. We cant explain. It just happens. Doc told me to try again dont have to worry. So, i learn to look at the other side of it. If my bb gal is not normal. She will be born being adnormal. Being a retard or a disable. It will be a burden to daddy n mummy. So she left in order to lessen my burden.
Its a sacrifice. And im grateful for my bb gal being so good. So in return, i make sure i gain back my heAlthy body and try again, my bb gal will come back soon.
Think this way. Be it who else will blame u on the mc. Dont care. Be yourself you know u had done your best.