Hi gals!
Tubby, don't feel like you are leeching lah... I also got my share of crying and despair
But I am a firm believer that time will heal all wounds. Although the wound might leave behind some scars, it won't hurt so much after a while. Even now, when I start getting 'sentimental', it is also not really the same kind of intensity as it was when it was 1-2 months after the incident.
Actually, Java and I had a discussion before on how to face relatives, especially during festive seasons. So far, my relatives have been very kind and have not said much 'wrong' things. I think it helps that when they see me, they see me smiling. Then, they know I am alright and will not try so hard to say something to make me feel better and that greatly reduces the chance of them saying the wrong thing. I think I did tell Java that I will tell them my son just died, I can't think of having another baby so soon. But, I don't have that opportunity.. the one uncle that asked me about having another baby was my father's eldest brother, who is really quite old and not in the know
My mum had a miscarriage before me. She sort of understand but I think she can't really get it either... so it doesnt mean that when someone gone through a miscarriage, they will understand.
Don't feel like a failure lah... some things are beyond our control.
Ocean, I think every loss is just as significant, be it at 6 weeks or 36 weeks. And I think each loss is just as painful as well...
Initially, when I lost my baby, I also relied upon Java a lot, cos her loss is closest to mine and at that time, I also think (in my anger, and the why why why stage)how can someone who have gone through a miscarriage at early stage understand my pain and agony. But after all this months (actually, almost 1 year), and chatting with so many of you, I realised that regardless of how early/late the miscarriage happen, each of us go through the same stage of despair, anger, disbelieve, acceptance, confidence to move on again and being pregnant again.
I think each and everyone of us are brave gals!1
Ok, enuff of philosophical stuff!
I am going to be at an offsite meeting tomorrow, so won't be logging in. Take care everyone!!
folic