jose
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Is anyone feeling the same as me?
I don't like my current life, even though 4 years into motherhood..I realise i dread this current situation so much but i have no choice to continue living in this miserable siutation...
Life after work dreads me, the thought of fetching my son from childcare centre, son will have dinner while i start the daily routine again..
Unpacked school bag, throw dirty laundry into washing machine while son having dinner..wash milk bottle, wash water bottle..Pack school bag for next day class..
Bath son, changed him, then it's almost 8pm..Hardly can enjoy an hr tv, its time to make milk and wash milk bottle again..Make sure he go toliet before bed..
Time is already 10pm..Hardly have any personal time to do things i want..In between intervals, there are also pestering from son to play with him or write/read books etc..
I am so sick of my life..Hubby hardly home to help out..Everyday the chores above seem like a after work part-time job except no pay is given..
though i dun need to do hsework or cook dinner as MIL is doing them, but i am feeling so miserable about doing all this..so bad so that i dread to go home after work..
I miss those singlehood days where i plan my own time to do things i want, to sleep,bath n eat whenever i want, now with a kid..no matter how tired i am, i can't even sleep a while after reaching home..The feeling is so torture to me..
I have tried to go out n relax myself, pamper myself with massage etc..but the minute i tink of facing my son and doing all this makes me dread going home so much..
But at times when he is out with MIL/hubby, the whole hse is so quiet n i start to miss him..when he is back..the phobia feeling is back..
I am feeling so confused with myself at times what exactly i want or need..
Employing a maid is out of the question..
Can anyone advise me how to enjoy motherhood more? I also dun get the affectionate feeling i want from my hubby..
Everything just add up and bottoms up within myself..
I don't like my current life, even though 4 years into motherhood..I realise i dread this current situation so much but i have no choice to continue living in this miserable siutation...
Life after work dreads me, the thought of fetching my son from childcare centre, son will have dinner while i start the daily routine again..
Unpacked school bag, throw dirty laundry into washing machine while son having dinner..wash milk bottle, wash water bottle..Pack school bag for next day class..
Bath son, changed him, then it's almost 8pm..Hardly can enjoy an hr tv, its time to make milk and wash milk bottle again..Make sure he go toliet before bed..
Time is already 10pm..Hardly have any personal time to do things i want..In between intervals, there are also pestering from son to play with him or write/read books etc..
I am so sick of my life..Hubby hardly home to help out..Everyday the chores above seem like a after work part-time job except no pay is given..
though i dun need to do hsework or cook dinner as MIL is doing them, but i am feeling so miserable about doing all this..so bad so that i dread to go home after work..
I miss those singlehood days where i plan my own time to do things i want, to sleep,bath n eat whenever i want, now with a kid..no matter how tired i am, i can't even sleep a while after reaching home..The feeling is so torture to me..
I have tried to go out n relax myself, pamper myself with massage etc..but the minute i tink of facing my son and doing all this makes me dread going home so much..
But at times when he is out with MIL/hubby, the whole hse is so quiet n i start to miss him..when he is back..the phobia feeling is back..
I am feeling so confused with myself at times what exactly i want or need..
Employing a maid is out of the question..
Can anyone advise me how to enjoy motherhood more? I also dun get the affectionate feeling i want from my hubby..
Everything just add up and bottoms up within myself..