Sorry but tis is gg to b a long post.. Bb_nn, Mabel, Silsilly, Sarah, RitzC, Kimmy, Nell, Bingo, Qingwei, Ron, Summer, Babybun, Ceraine, Shainie, other sisters,
Thank you for the well wishes & faith in me.. & apologies for making some of u worried for me..
I'm sorry for ruining the happie atmosphere of Mabel's BFP news.. But I hv lost the battle...
Nothg was concluded @ the 24hr clinic last nite, as I sort of expected.. Aft reaching home, the flow juz went redder & heavier.. Called KKH todae & was told to stil go for BT todae. The flow is red and full heavy flow, so wat can I expect out of the BT results..
I hv not posted earlier as I was either zz or crying my eyes out.. In my TTC route, I was always given lots of false hopes, which made me fall even worst.. With no found reasons for infertility, I started tis 1st ivf in fear.. Crossed each hurdle smoothly, tt even Dr Zou was delighted with my progress.. Responded well to stim jabs, retrieved a decent number of eggs, transferred 2 grade 5 embbies, took long leave for tis ivf, did most of the thgs tt sisters here suggested, rested well, stayed positive thru out.. Oni to hv brown spotting as early as 9dpt & full menses flow on nite of 10dpt, 5 days bef BT..
I juz wish to say tt, so long as we hv done our best, the rest is beyond our control.. We dont need to worry so much, as the rest lies in the hands of Heaven who has everythg planned for us..
To all sisters who hv given me frendship, babydusts, superb advices, guidance, support, encouragement, well-wishes, keeping me in prayers, I sincerely thank u for tt.. It is truly a
blessing to hv all of u & tis forum, whn I hv nobody to turn to.. & I m thankful for tis blessing bestowed to me.. None of my close frens need to go thru ivf & they weren't even by my side during tis part of my life...
To my cycle buddies who r having BT on tis fri (Summer, Ceraine, Koirc) & 30th (Qingwei) & not forgetting Babybun,
I sincerely wish tt u gals ll BFP BFP BFP & carry ur bundles of joy in ur arms 9 mths later..
To the rest of sisters in 2ww (Bingo, Whitetiger etc), & thse who r cycling soon (Kimmy, Ron, Sarah etc),
All the best for the journey ahead & wishing BFP for all of u..
As I m stil feeling the pain of tis failed cycle & losing most of my fighting spirit, I need some time to plan my next path, & then I shall continue my quest to b a mummy, either naturally, else shall b back here in tis one big family.. Meanwhile, I may juz b a silent reader or not logged in here, to give myself a break.. Million thanks once again for the great company & frendship..
& remember, ALL of US here deserves every respect & treatment as a QUEEN.. @ least fr our very own self... Jiayou!!