hi koala,
me started lucrin just now, I chose to do it at night cos morning too rush and hb started work time different from mine, he is injecting me. Like you, I am fully aware and prepare of the procedure since it is not the first time but still when the moment came, I still have emotional obstacles, he was holding the injection at the bedside ready to inject me and when he saw me like dat ( my face must be full of fear and emotions) he said "if so terrible, then forget it lah, never mind" but you and me know that it is not possible, so I finally let him jab ( the first step out) then realised not as bad. To be honest, before I prepare the injection, I came to this thread and saw your posting, (yes more or less affected me) but trust me, I think all of us here feels the same way as you. My hb also commented that this time, the amount to jab is lesser ( the last time, I use supefact, 50ml) this time with lucrin, only 10ml, so I think that is already a consolation.
I dunno along the way, what will happen, will I ended up terminating this IVF like some of the gals here with OHSS or no response to the stimulation though the last round, everything went smoothly (at that time, I did not know of this thread therefore did not know actually there are so many consequences, therefore sometimes better not know so much
This could be my last fresh? I do not know becos I more or less accepted the fact that I could live w/o kid.
I think I will just go a step at a time and not think about it, beside the injection at night, the rest remains the same for me, as in my lifestyle, no change. I would like to take it that way, life still go on the same as per normal (just a injection at night) and therefore even when I fail again at the end of this treatment, it remains the same as before, nothing changes.
I am taking the OCP as well which mood swing is a side effect too but I always like to insist that whatever lousy feeling that I am feeling got nothing to do with the medication but the issue that made me angry, like my job lah or someone really come and irritated me, so that it makes me more reasonable
at least I have a good reason to be moody.
I always do self-psyco, ask questions inside my brain and then answer with positive answers myself to make myself feels better, try this method, hope it works for you. For example: why god makes my life so difficult, I just want a baby? Answer myself: becos he wants me to realise that my child does not come easy and give me time to learn how to treasure and teach my child better when he or she comes along, becos I will be a much better mother to my child since he or she is gonna be so precious to me, becos when the time comes, my baby will be so special and smart cos good things always come last.
for example: question myself: why I failed again? answer myself: becos it is still not my time yet, there are many others who are older than me and still trying so i need to wait for my turn, cos there are more desperate cases before me that god needs to attend to first, cos maybe having baby is a very torturing task and worrying forever for the kid and god is kind to me as in not to put me thru that kind of suffering for my whole life, look at those kids that made their parents suffer.
when you have questions like these, answer it yourself, only then it will make you feel better, whoever answer it for me makes no different, it will never help as much as if you answer it yourself, this is what I call self-psyco.
Maybe should ML every other day! hehehe 
