Hi all,
Sharing a demoralising story....
In my week 35,
when at work, experienced pinkish mucus discharged and some bleeding @ 10am. Call clinic, was advised to go for check....
Dr checked and suspect it's show but no dilation. Was worried that have pre-mature delivery. Dr was positive cos BB is already of good size @ 2.5kg and in fact he was saying it will be easier for VBAC and show means cervix softening to prepare for delivery.
Went home and the wait continues....
Next day, near to midnight, experienced pain in upper abodminal. The pain comes and goes, suspected contractions but experienced diarrhoea at the same time, puzzled....!!!!
Endure for another day till near midnight, decided to call Dr emergency line. Dr was good, he returned call and suspected me having gastrorentitis n spasim, advised me to go on antacid to relieve the pain.
It works and save me the trouble and $$ to go emergency.
the wait goes on..... weekly review continues...
Week 38 review, Dr measured BB Head Circumference at 36 and est weight at 3.3kg. Was anxious about the big day therefore keep checking with Dr whether everything conditioned for VBAC. DR commented that everything seems fine.
Week 39 - has been feeling weird the whole day at work...tension in lower abdominal feel stronger as the hour passes...
Contractions start around midnight when I go to bed. Hubby was sleeping soundly when I endure through every contractions at 15 mins interval.
(p.s. have mutually agreed with hubby that shall only go hospital only at the last min when cannot endure cos we felt we have been sabotage previously for going to the hospital too early in 2nd preg and was kept in bed and dont help my dilation).
5am - hubby realised I'm in pain and was concerned. Tell him I'm in Contractions and he was asked whether I want to go hospital. Assured him I am coping well with it.
6am - experienced bowel urge, pass motion and realised there are thick muscus discharged.
7am - very sure this is the D Day. Get up to start packing children's stuff for school and also to prepare to park them with relatives in case end up in long labour.
730am - hubby want to send me to hospital after sending my elder boys to school. Contractions still bearable at 10 min interval. Dismiss hubby to go work to settle / handover his duties. Was too tired from sleepless night, dozed off in between contractions.
10+am - called clinic. Was advised to go down clinic by lunch. Inform hubby and advised him to finish his stuff as contractions still bearable at 10 min intervals. Continue to catch my sleep to build up stamina.
11+am - showered and do final packing to prepare to go hospital. Now contractions at 5 min intervals.
1230pm - arrived at gynae's clinic, go through checked and 3 cm dilated. Confirmed in labour, was sent to delivery observation ward.
130pm - put on CTG to monitor. Nurse manager came around to counsel on risks on VBAC ESP VBA2C, somehow feel that they are trying to scare you and deter u from trying. Determine on trying and with the support from hubby, ignore all these negative factors.
5pm - Dr came around to check. Contractions still not at peak, so keep monitoring. Having gastric pain for not eating (nurse dont allow as they felt I am at risk for C-Section), seek Dr advise and he say why not...light snack was served later.
6pm - feels tired after striped to bed for so long, as to remove and take a walk around the ward. All nurses very concerned, keep asking me to go back to bed to monitor and emphasize that I am VBA2C, very high risk, they dont want to risk. No choice - go back to be striped again.
7pm - contractions get stronger and nearer after my walk....checked dilation - 4cm, disheartening, but at least its progressing.
9pm - experienced some pain in left abdominal near to my scar. Has been wondering should inform nurses and Dr, finally decided to tell. Dr came around to check. No sharp pain when he depressed on the area - rule out pain from womb rupture. More likely to be ligament pain. Continue to monitor...
Was wondering whether should go on epidural as Dr mentioned that it will rule out the pain from contractions and womb rupture.
10pm - Finally decide to go on epidural on the safe side.
11pm - Anesthatic came, asked the usual questions and also why go on VBA2C. Re-emphasized on the risk again. Some how felt that they are all not supportive of VBA2C, all are kind of making me dismiss the idea...felt I have come so far, so better endure on. Pain goes off, contractions continue to be intensed.
12am - Dr came around, dilation still at 4cm. Dr advised to break water bag, hopefully can speed up the process.
Asked for snack but was rejected again. Tell them Dr say can eat light snack, finally get me some biscuit and milo but hardly can eat cos gastric pain is giving me the nausea.
3am - feeling pain in the lower abdominal near scar with the moves from the nurses when they change my mat. Have not been able to move lower body due to epidural but was insisted by Nurses to move my butt!!! Guessed may have hurt my ligament during the moves.
330am - pain get intense, can feel pain in between contractions, wonder what's happening inside...kind of getting worry...nurses increase the epidural slightly but dont want to increase further as she say may cause nausea.
4am - feeling pain and nausea at the same time. Throw up eventually (not likely to be epidural but from not eating!!!). Pain gets intense in the upper abdominal - not sure if gastric pain or other pain? Worry about what is happening inside the womb....
415pm - in unbearable pain in upper abdominal, feel worry as I am already on epidural. Called for Dr to review. Dr checked still at 4cm dilation. Concluded that no progressing further and since I am in great pain, it will be safer to go for C-Section.
430am - was sent to OT, still feeling pain when Dr pinched on abdominal. Epidural not working, Dr advised to go on GA since I am in great pain and he dont want to take the risk.
Hubby all dressed up to enter OT but was stop last min since going on GA. Feel sorry for hubby.
440am - baby is finally born, weighting at 3.9kg.
DR spoken to hubby after ops - summary > scar looks ok but the womb is stretching that's y I am feeling the pain. Possible reason for unsuccessful dilation is because BB is in OP position ie back of BB head facing back of mummy, that's why BB cannot decend to assist in dilation. Size of BB is not the possible factor.
Conclusion, I failed in my VBA2C.
Feeling sad when I heard SIL recalling happily about seeing BB came out from Birth Tunnel...but at least I have tried, tho I am unsuccesssful.... Didnt achieve my birth plan also, cos both myself and hubby didnt see the birth of my BB....so sad !!!
But nevertheless, I am still relieved that both myself and BB are safe and sound.
Anyway, thanks for all who concerns about my VBA2C journey.
I wished all who are trying for VBAC for successful VBAC, do bear in mind to endure despite all the negative remarks from people around you. Most important of all, get the support of your hubby, it will help you get through...nevertheless, do ensure that both mother and BB are safe and sound.
Hope to hear more of successful VBAC stories...
Sharing a demoralising story....
In my week 35,
when at work, experienced pinkish mucus discharged and some bleeding @ 10am. Call clinic, was advised to go for check....
Dr checked and suspect it's show but no dilation. Was worried that have pre-mature delivery. Dr was positive cos BB is already of good size @ 2.5kg and in fact he was saying it will be easier for VBAC and show means cervix softening to prepare for delivery.
Went home and the wait continues....
Next day, near to midnight, experienced pain in upper abodminal. The pain comes and goes, suspected contractions but experienced diarrhoea at the same time, puzzled....!!!!
Endure for another day till near midnight, decided to call Dr emergency line. Dr was good, he returned call and suspected me having gastrorentitis n spasim, advised me to go on antacid to relieve the pain.
It works and save me the trouble and $$ to go emergency.
the wait goes on..... weekly review continues...
Week 38 review, Dr measured BB Head Circumference at 36 and est weight at 3.3kg. Was anxious about the big day therefore keep checking with Dr whether everything conditioned for VBAC. DR commented that everything seems fine.
Week 39 - has been feeling weird the whole day at work...tension in lower abdominal feel stronger as the hour passes...
Contractions start around midnight when I go to bed. Hubby was sleeping soundly when I endure through every contractions at 15 mins interval.
(p.s. have mutually agreed with hubby that shall only go hospital only at the last min when cannot endure cos we felt we have been sabotage previously for going to the hospital too early in 2nd preg and was kept in bed and dont help my dilation).
5am - hubby realised I'm in pain and was concerned. Tell him I'm in Contractions and he was asked whether I want to go hospital. Assured him I am coping well with it.
6am - experienced bowel urge, pass motion and realised there are thick muscus discharged.
7am - very sure this is the D Day. Get up to start packing children's stuff for school and also to prepare to park them with relatives in case end up in long labour.
730am - hubby want to send me to hospital after sending my elder boys to school. Contractions still bearable at 10 min interval. Dismiss hubby to go work to settle / handover his duties. Was too tired from sleepless night, dozed off in between contractions.
10+am - called clinic. Was advised to go down clinic by lunch. Inform hubby and advised him to finish his stuff as contractions still bearable at 10 min intervals. Continue to catch my sleep to build up stamina.
11+am - showered and do final packing to prepare to go hospital. Now contractions at 5 min intervals.
1230pm - arrived at gynae's clinic, go through checked and 3 cm dilated. Confirmed in labour, was sent to delivery observation ward.
130pm - put on CTG to monitor. Nurse manager came around to counsel on risks on VBAC ESP VBA2C, somehow feel that they are trying to scare you and deter u from trying. Determine on trying and with the support from hubby, ignore all these negative factors.
5pm - Dr came around to check. Contractions still not at peak, so keep monitoring. Having gastric pain for not eating (nurse dont allow as they felt I am at risk for C-Section), seek Dr advise and he say why not...light snack was served later.
6pm - feels tired after striped to bed for so long, as to remove and take a walk around the ward. All nurses very concerned, keep asking me to go back to bed to monitor and emphasize that I am VBA2C, very high risk, they dont want to risk. No choice - go back to be striped again.
7pm - contractions get stronger and nearer after my walk....checked dilation - 4cm, disheartening, but at least its progressing.
9pm - experienced some pain in left abdominal near to my scar. Has been wondering should inform nurses and Dr, finally decided to tell. Dr came around to check. No sharp pain when he depressed on the area - rule out pain from womb rupture. More likely to be ligament pain. Continue to monitor...
Was wondering whether should go on epidural as Dr mentioned that it will rule out the pain from contractions and womb rupture.
10pm - Finally decide to go on epidural on the safe side.
11pm - Anesthatic came, asked the usual questions and also why go on VBA2C. Re-emphasized on the risk again. Some how felt that they are all not supportive of VBA2C, all are kind of making me dismiss the idea...felt I have come so far, so better endure on. Pain goes off, contractions continue to be intensed.
12am - Dr came around, dilation still at 4cm. Dr advised to break water bag, hopefully can speed up the process.
Asked for snack but was rejected again. Tell them Dr say can eat light snack, finally get me some biscuit and milo but hardly can eat cos gastric pain is giving me the nausea.
3am - feeling pain in the lower abdominal near scar with the moves from the nurses when they change my mat. Have not been able to move lower body due to epidural but was insisted by Nurses to move my butt!!! Guessed may have hurt my ligament during the moves.
330am - pain get intense, can feel pain in between contractions, wonder what's happening inside...kind of getting worry...nurses increase the epidural slightly but dont want to increase further as she say may cause nausea.
4am - feeling pain and nausea at the same time. Throw up eventually (not likely to be epidural but from not eating!!!). Pain gets intense in the upper abdominal - not sure if gastric pain or other pain? Worry about what is happening inside the womb....
415pm - in unbearable pain in upper abdominal, feel worry as I am already on epidural. Called for Dr to review. Dr checked still at 4cm dilation. Concluded that no progressing further and since I am in great pain, it will be safer to go for C-Section.
430am - was sent to OT, still feeling pain when Dr pinched on abdominal. Epidural not working, Dr advised to go on GA since I am in great pain and he dont want to take the risk.
Hubby all dressed up to enter OT but was stop last min since going on GA. Feel sorry for hubby.
440am - baby is finally born, weighting at 3.9kg.
DR spoken to hubby after ops - summary > scar looks ok but the womb is stretching that's y I am feeling the pain. Possible reason for unsuccessful dilation is because BB is in OP position ie back of BB head facing back of mummy, that's why BB cannot decend to assist in dilation. Size of BB is not the possible factor.
Conclusion, I failed in my VBA2C.
Feeling sad when I heard SIL recalling happily about seeing BB came out from Birth Tunnel...but at least I have tried, tho I am unsuccesssful.... Didnt achieve my birth plan also, cos both myself and hubby didnt see the birth of my BB....so sad !!!
But nevertheless, I am still relieved that both myself and BB are safe and sound.
Anyway, thanks for all who concerns about my VBA2C journey.
I wished all who are trying for VBAC for successful VBAC, do bear in mind to endure despite all the negative remarks from people around you. Most important of all, get the support of your hubby, it will help you get through...nevertheless, do ensure that both mother and BB are safe and sound.
Hope to hear more of successful VBAC stories...
