thanks everyone for your kind advice.
i have yet to make any move towards divorce. procrastinating.... every time i want to make that move, i think about my son.
my problem is a little bit more complicated now, actually.
i tried to restore the family by suggesting a family trip. we went and came back and things got worse during the trip. i kicked up a big fuss when we came back and shifted back to my parent's place.
somehow, my husband could have realised that he was at fault or something. anyway, he tried to bring me back home. my parents also persuaded me to go back to my marital home. so, although not very willing, i went back.
since then, things were slightly better. he will help out with baby stuff. i could bear with the situation better, at least, i do not have to get his frustrated face, or him feigning ignorance, or getting sarcastic remarks, whenever help is needed re taking care of son.
BUT he still showed no care and concern towards me, towards me nothing has changed, still the indifferent attitude.
AND at the same time, i find myself thinking of my colleague more and more often. it could be due to the lack of care and concern from my husband, so much so that when someone comes along and show you some care and concern, i m so touched. feel stuck in this situation, i cannot move forward with him, neither can i stop myself from thinking about him.
sigh. story of my life.