Hi Ladies,
i briefly reply my msg here... have been feeling down and not well...

i noticed my CD2, i was coughing... and suddenly i feel sth being pushed out of my vaginal. I went to e toilet and check and i saw a about 3cm long thing on my pad. it was like jelly type... and it was dark red in col... dono is it blood clot (xue kuai)? but it was so jelly type... till today, i am still feeling upset in my tummy... and feel weak till my gastric pain attacks...

it was really bad. and this AF was not easy to handle...
ytd went to another gynae (gynae S) to scan cos gynae P said must scan during AF CD2 or CD3 with red flow. And i m afraid if wait till tdy CD4 to see gynae P, my AF drying liao... so i went to gynae S to scna and had a very stressful outcome with un-assured answer.... so today i want to go back to my gynae P to show him my scan from ytd's since tdy AF almost clearing liao, no point wasting money to scan again. i dono y i always encountered such... maybe just unlucky? or mayb i have a problem, or maybe i am having depression??? i dono wat to do...
when i told my friends i am sad cos no hope liao. AF coming liao see spotting liao etc... thy comfort me by giving me some hopes...
when i told my friends my AF finally came... and i am happy... don feel tt sad liao... my friends said i have many diff story diff mood. i very weird.
thy said i seemed so contradicting... dono wat i want... and thy dono how to answer me...

seems like even my friends don understand me and find me weird...
i told them u all had a smooth pregnancy and no difficulties ttc-ing u wont understand how i am going thru...
i guessed, in future, i shall bear in mind not to tell them or share with them my problems n sorrows anymore. thy find me a nuisance complaining to them... i don have many friends, i am kind of introvert kind... i work well with animals and children but not human beings... i think i am an alien... i am not good at words.... i am oso not so in that kind of person. a bit lag back. in my eyes only hubby and family. friends pnly will meet if there is any special events.