Hi crown,
wow! u're really talented.i wanted to sew my baby those bean pillow,but never got ard to doing it.maybe it's god's way of telling me no need to do it already.so now i'm not preg,i want to quickly sew it,but i've been so bz,no time to do leisurely stuff like that.there must be a reason for ur spotting/bleeding so often.the last time i had this was coz i took clomid.i took 2 rounds of clomid,followed by 2 rounds of IUI.in the end,i was so fed up of all these drugs i decided to stop everything.and i got preg naturally.oh,i even took bai feng wan together with clomid.i think all that really screwed up my body.
Hi JC,
thanks for passing on my email add so that i'm kept in the loop.
Ladies,
juz a short update.I'M OFF TO TAIWAN IN DEC! i tot no chance to book,very last min.hubby couldn't confirm anything.even hol booking is such a stressful time.need to co-ordinate.i'm easy,but his is always last min.made me so fed up.i tot his vietnam work trip has been confirmed.when booking,he told me only to be confirmed tom! *faint*
that's the happy part.the not so happy part.after booking the hol,hubby happily showed me his dad SMS-ed him a report abt eating garlic to increase sperm quality.it's juz so irritating that his dad is poking his nose into our affairs! & it's juz not nice for in law to know we cannot conceive.we didn't tell him abt preg no.2 coz i wanted to keep it hush hush.i juz didn't want to have anything to do with his dad.at that moment,i wanted to scream to my 'out-laws' (well,i'm not interested in hanging ard them,so they are not in laws),telling his that it's his son's fault we r having so much trouble! i'm sure my parents know i'm trying,considering i had 2 preg.but they never poked their noses into our affairs.some more ttc is so private,right??? my parents will nag at me to tell me don't jeaprodise my chances of getting preg.not really nag,but hint.they never told my hubby in the face anything abt all this.THIS IS SO IRRITATING!!! not that i'm not having enough problems ttc already.
oh,1 more good thing to add.i saw 2 lines on OPK.never had this b4 coz 1st time use,i read immediately (like preg test kit),no result,i threw away.then 1 day,i left it for a long time,forgot,and i saw 2 lines.so this time,i've learned.but i O later than usual.heck lah,i've got so many things on my mind these days,i'm on the verge of giving up already.earlier this wk,i was really depressed,i was so frustrated that i cried and i screamed to myself in the room to let out all the frustration.i felt better after that.and there was 1 day that i felt this sense of helplessness,but also frustration the moment i walked into a shopping center.i don't know y.but i felt like i can't have a baby when hubby's friends are all going for no.2,no.3 already.
Oh! BTW!!! this takes the cake.rem i told u gals abt hubby's friend giving me preg test kit coz his wife got preg with no.2 already? it was not given with goodwill.1 day i saw him online and he said,"i want to give u something.guess wat it is? it starts with C".of course i know! we juz found out his wife was preg!that was after my stillbirth.i never spoken to him then,.i don't think i'm petty,but i don't think i want to hang ard ppl who cannot be sensitive to me.my b'day juz passed,he sent me a sms.i wanted to reply him out of courtesy,but i decided to ignore him.he asked my hubby if i was angry.well,there's a reason y i haven't spoken to him in 1+ yr,right? well,even if he thinks with his arse,he will know!