I so understand how you feel. For me although I kept #1 stuff, deep down it was for a girl. Now boy I dunno what to do with him. I've no cl so I do most of the taking care. Then now #1 sick so she's banned fr her didi room. The poor girl can only sit at the door to watch. Sigh...
I even started "scolding" him liao, for not latching properly. My areola big so he can't take in all so each feed hurts. Makes me feel so battered and bruised.
Last night he also couldn't sleep, fr 6+ on/off all the way to 3am! I'm thinking it's growth spurt cos it's exactly one week today, but all he wanted to do was latch. Simply refused to be put in his cot. Then #1 high fever somemore. Ugh.... Just madness......