ladies..
i haf been feeling very emo lately... been crying & i did not tell hubby abt it coz i dunno how to explain the feeling..
i haf been staying over at my mum's place on weekends after we got married, bt ytd when he come fetch mi back to his place, i cried on the way back...
my sis juz gave birth on last sat, i really wanted to go visit her, bt hubby say cannot.. he n his mum r those quite pantang type.. they even go ask the medium, & bein advised that if i really wan go, can only go after they discharged fr hosp & cant touch the baby whn i'm there.. & after i go hm, i haf to do some sort of cleaning.. i know tat they r concern abt the baby & worried tat things might went wrong, bt i still cant help feeling very upset over it..
n today while at work, my boss send mi a msg asking mi to do something abt my sales performance. i admit tat i'm nt able to perform these few mths coz my morning sickness r very bad, been vomiting all day long & keep feeling very tired.. bt i had tried to at least attend her meetings & trainings.. my hubby & i r working in the same co, & he juz now overheard my boss toking to someone & said tat dunno wat am i doin, body at work, bt mind already drift to dunno where... after i heard tat, i went to hide in toilet to cry..
i really dunno wat i should do.. & now hubby r on the way to airport to go penang, & will only be back on wed nite... really dislike all the crying part as i'm scared tat my baby will turn out to be crybaby as well.. wat should i do? anything i can do to make myself happier..?