Dear mummies. I think I've reached the max of my limit. I really felt like ending my life. I can't take care of my boy anymore coz he cries non stop and nothing can stop his crying, slinging, carrying, talking. The only temp way to stop is breastfeeding but once the milk stops, he will cry and bathing but I can't possibly put him in the bathtub for the whole day.
This morning he woke up at 4am and after drinking, he still cried. Gave him nasal spray and still crying. My husband handled him coz he knew I can't take this anymore. After that, he fell asleep. At 9am, he woke up again and after drinking his milk, he continued to cry and I carried him from the yao lan, he stopped crying and fall asleep. So I put him down on the yao lan and he cried again. Carried him again for a while n put him down n he cried again. I turned on the power for the electric rocker and ignored him. Coz he had an experience yest that I ignored him when he continued crying, he dare not cry so loud and he stopped after crying for about 5 min. After that, I secretly checked on him and he is still awake but dun dare to cry. After a while, he started crying again n I ignored him n he stopped after 1 min.
Now that he's sleeping, I already have no more mood to go back to slp. Yest I told my husband I hope I will slp and dun wake up forever.
Sorry mummies, I know I'm complaining too much but I really felt very upset. I'm going to bring him to a PD at Bishan tonight which accepts appt.