hi mummies~~ i want to rant... feeling super upset now.
it has been a few weeks that i have been tolerating my hubby from playing maple story. do your hubby play that too?
as you all know, me and baby during weekday stayed at my dad place and weekend then stay at our own place. so shldn't the weekend be a bonding time for the father and son? but guess what? the father rather spend his time to play the maple. i damn sick of it. before marriage like that, after marriage also like that. now being a father, he still don't want to change!!!
during weekdays, he also play, but after work like 1-2hrs that kind. then weekend also.. he will play till 3-5am. last night was 3am plus and last sat was 5am plus. i smsed him last sat to say, so late liao still don't want to sleep ar.. then he come in lo.
today worst.. cos we have a fight.. he so angry that he turned the rocker over. i said to my boy that you are daddy's no. 2. and who is no. 1? i guess all of you know lo. i got reason saying that.
for the past few weeks, whether i need his help to look after my boy while i go make milk or do some other thing, i will ask him. he came in and helped. i asked a few times or sometimes even the first time i asked him, he "tsk". what is this? he ask me to put him in the playpen instead of our bed. hello.. the only time he bond with his son is when i ask him to help to look after him lo. and he ask me put him in playpen? then he continue to play his game? last week i also use sms to tell him off le. but this week still the same. last night once he fetch us home, maple again. till 3am plus.
today supposed to go to my grandma's place. morning i went wet market to buy fish & meat and also bought breakfast for me. asked him to wake up and eat, and also asked him to look after baby 3 times. cos baby after feeding, i don't want him in playpen and flip.. he will vomit the milk. then when it's time to wake up to prepare to go for visiting, he said he got headache and give black face. he said i woke him up so many times in the morning. shld i say if he don't play till so late, does it matter if i wake him up? who to blame for the headache? me? he told me he got headache when in the car to my dad place to fetch him. he said he will drop us and go. i said ok lo. then when reached my grandma's place, he said since here, he will stay then. he said he scared i alone take bus dangerous, nobody give me seat. i appreciated it. but i think we already agreed to go grandma's place beforehand and he shld sleep early and nt enough sleep liao then complain. before leaving hse, he said no lunch ar. what the~~~ am i his maid or what? buy breakfast nt enough? i woke up 6am didn't sleep until now. and he was sleeping till late morning like 11.30am and now he is taking his nap while im complaining here.
after we got home, i want to make milk for baby so i put him in playpen and he on his laptop to play maple. then after i fed the milk, he said he will off at 5pm. then i said, ya, off at 5pm then you go and sleep. no bonding again. abt 10mins time, i said i want to give baby porridge. so i asked him to look after him. baby is on the rocker. he was playing his maple. baby was crying like hell. maybe no attention from anyone. guess what the great father did? he jus continue with his game lo. wow.. ur son cry until like that and u ignored and keep playing the game? if you, will you be pissed off? i damn pissed off lo. asked him to help to look after baby, he said ok.. he said baby got a few times almost fell from the rocker and he has put him back. so is like he has done his part. he asked my boy don't cry. then he complained saying his clothes too thick. making him sweat. i said he sweat cos he was crying so badly. then he said whatever he say, i got something to talk back. i was with my boy and he didn't sweat but i leave my boy with him, he sweat.. cos he was crying mah.. then when i start to feed my boy porridge, i told my boy don't cry.. saying too bad.. you are no. 2. he got pissed off and said.. didn't i tell you i play till 5pm? how many times must i say? i told him, i asked you to look after him awhile (not even 5mins). i asked him, so maple is more impt than your son? some argument came up and he scolded me F*** and asked me to shut up. remember him scolding me idiot before? i ask him to ask him friends.. they got like that or not. he said our son for nothing kept on crying and he is frustutrated. he cried too excessive. but which baby don't cry? they cry for a reason. i explained to him if he was in baby situation, how would he feel? he jus kept quiet. he said whether he carry him, he will cry. i said maybe bonding nt enough. so weekend bond with him. he refused to listen to me and thinks that baby give him trouble. he said "you carry baby he also cry, did i say you are not a perfect mum?" i think he said this cos i said baby is no. 2 in dad's eyes. but i don't think im wrong. baby is really his dad no. 2 lo. weekday play le still not enough, weekend still want to play. i let him play.. but when times come for bonding, pls stop playing. the number of hours he face maple is don't know how many times more than his son. he said he needs his own time to relax.. pls lo.. last night play till 3am!! and don't forget.. before we go grandma's place, he said he headache.. don't want to stay at my grandma's place. so play maple can cure his headache..
last week when i sms him, i said, during weekdays when he sms me saying that he misses me and baby are fake. cos weekend when we are back, he was on his game. i said already consistent for few weeks and if this is going to continue, me and baby will just simply stay at my dad place. and i seriously think i shld do it next weekend. shld i? to give him a lesson! both our birthdays are next week and i seriously don't want to celebrate with him. and i don't think he will buy me any present.. for the past few birthdays and anni, he didn't get me anything.. is i requested after the occasion. he said no need to celebrate one.
and just now we also arguing abt the sarong.. he said mdm wong from TMC said don't let baby sleep sarong.. i tried to kick off for my boy but he only sleep awhile. for me, i think his sleep is impt, i rather he sleep in sarong for long than on bed for a short while like half an hour. and who is going to coax him to sleep again? it's me? saying is so easy for him cos he don't help at all. unless i insisted. he still want me to continue my studies for ACCA. how to when i have a husband like that.
ok.. im done ranting..
thanks mummies and daddies for reading my long post of anger.