Hi all, firstly congrats to Jul for getting BFP.
I been having red since 2pm on Sat. Was kinda of sad...but anyway by 5pm I started to lie on bed and cry and at the same time decided to pack and change and hb suggested to go to eat a nice meal b4 calling my gynae.
While deciding wat to wear, hb had to get the clothes for me...and he started to get stressed up and went crazy and started to cry along with me. We are both sad.
I also dunno wat to do, and told him he has to be strong for me..., strong to console me, to take care of me. Aft a while, he picked up and really did what he was told, tried to cheered me up. Wanted to eat BK to try our last attempt, but crowded, went to swensen.....crowded, hb suggested soup restaurant and the wait was okie. So had my last attempt of double boiled soup. Aft which I called my gynae. He cancelled my call and I sms him instead. He called back and asked me to go A&E.
Well, reached A&E 9+pm and finally aft long long wait and being poked at the side of the hand for the plug (in case need to be drip) the most painful thing thruout. (a few yrs ago, I did the plug at the centre of my hand but it wasn't pain). Went for ultrasound at almost midnite and went to the ward only at 2am.
Hb stayed outside, cos cant stay in the rm and wait till 6am b4 taking mrt home (cos save $).
Sun continue to bleed, my gynae not working on sunday...and nothing was given until MOnday suppose to do ultrasound to discuss further wat shld be done.
Monday, at 8am I started to feel v bad cramp, v bad. Told nurse, gynae at work...Anyway suppose to schedule and go to do ultrasound. So 9.30am finally wheel to do ultrasound. Then while waiting for the ultrasound pple to do ultrasound for me, i felt so cramp and felt like shitting...so i struggled to the toliet. cramp and finally shitted, have a lot of cold sweat and definitely I felt like hell. So finally have to pull the nurse call.
They wheeled me back and finally got my gynae to come 10 mins later....
Put a funnel and got gynae something out. I was in so much pain I already cannot see anything...Anyway the gynae asked the nurse to give me a painkiller jab and i felt better 30mins later.
I read a little of the post on Monday afternoon using my hb psp...then vistors came.
Finally discharged yest, and I got bad pain sleeping hospital bed. Frens came and visit me aft I discharged and I asked my covering colleague for my work to pass me my laptop. So I was so tired that I zzz aft I cried bucket at nite. Wanted to log in, in between, but everything so messy, no time and too tired.
Sleep and sleep...finally only really got up abt 2+pm.....
dilly and dally and cried v hard again b4 I finally got alittle time to log on.
So I cld only log in now.
I was smiling when talking to doc, to my frens, to my colleague talking abt work.......
But I just cld not help crying v hard yest, with my hb hugging me. Althou it is just a sac, or waterbag, but I feel for it, my 6weeks of mine.
Today the manager handling my npl called and was a little insensitive althou she dun mean it, but I started crying bucket like hell again.
I been hearing everyone, doctor, nurses, frens, blah blah blah say u r young can try again, or even same as hb say it has not form yet. But I just cant help feeling sad. I told hb this, he say of course pple dunno wat to say, if u telling pple, u will say these few things. Yar, but I still feel sad over that thing no matter how young I m.
Anyway wanted to update ur asap, but too tired.
Wishing all a wonderful, smooth, happy 2009 and of course most impt Hope everyone will have a smooth delivery in July/Aug/Sept 2009 and a happy, healthy baby in July/Aug/Sept 2009!
This will be my last post this year. I will not check my post this year.