hi mummies,
<font color="ff0000">seabreeze, fireangel, starflower, jojo, tuskywollie, ann, cindy, asura, scrumpee, lenny, alfafa, strawberrys, mangogal</font>
thanks so much for all your support n good advise. i must be crazy going against all the signs n all your solid advise. but i just can't bear to put bb in infantcare now. was crazily surfing thru SMH forum for topics on infantcare n wat i read juz made me more hesistant. he's only 4 months sob, i'm so worry he'll be left to cry or pick up some illnesses ever so frequently. coupled with the fact tat my boy is not exactly easy to look after, wanting to b carried n attention ever so frequently, i'm even more worried. he's a very sensitive bb, even if ppl raise our voices abit, he'll tink we r scolding him and cry so sadly. i can't bear to do it, not to leave him in the hands of strangers... despite numerous dicussions with hubby over dis weekend, i'm still choosing to resign 1st, take care of bb for dis year then try to look for another job next year n place him in infantcare after he's past 10 months. i must b crazy...wish i was as strong as you mummies but i'm an emotional person n can't overrule my heart
sob.
hubby is stressed but he supports me. am so thankful for it. haha, he rather i b happy with bb than to constantly worry abt him in infantcare which he tinks will end up giving him more stress as i will b prone to emotional tantrums then fretting abt bb. at least in his words, he can hv peace of mind n concentrate at work knowing i'm tking care of our son. we must b crazy! but since we made our choice according to our hearts, watever happens, can only wish for the best and stay strong.
thanks thanks for all your time. *hugs hugs!*
<font color="ff0000">alfafa</font>
the danger to his job is real if a certain situation happens. the unknown is only if it will really happened. still scary but since we made our choice, watever happens must tong thru. i must tk note not to give him addtl stress thru my actions/words...
<font color="ff0000">strawberrys</font>
oh yes, tat's exactly how i feel too, that only i can give the best to my bb. i know it's crazy but i juz can't stop worrying abt him even at work. i believe too that my bb can cope better with changes than me. while he's very clingy and attached to me, i know too that i am prob more attached to him than he is to me... do hope your childcare arrangement is working out!
<font color="ff0000">mangogal</font>
thanks dear. my stomachache worsen on fri and i went gp. initially tot was gastric flu but fri nite i started passing blood and was referred to a&e when i went back to the gp. now suspect is bacteria infection of my colon n big intestine so is on antibiotics to clear. sigh, didn't know stomachache can give rise to so complicated stuff, next time got to watch out and go to the doc earlier. now can't bf bb, got to pour away all the bm expressed, so heartpain... actually fri nite makes me all the more 'bu she de' my bb coz when we went to a&e, he was left to sleep alone with my mil looking after him. he couldn't sleep well and kept waking up and even after we reach home, he had nightmares and woke up crying shrilly with his eyes closed. sob, see liao heart even more pain...