sorry mummies...just wanna side-track n pour out some sorrows with my MIL here... only found out after talking to my maid today...
yesterday had to attend full-day workshop so had to let my boy be at my IL's place, though i'm not in favour of tat but my mum working. while he was there, my IL's neighbour's grandmother was there, caring for her grandchild. she asked my maid to give my boy water. my maid said that she give already, she say must still give. my maid told her later wanna drink milk already, so cannot give. she commented to my MIL - ur daughter-in-law dunno how to care for bb. (how insulting can that be!) n both of them had a field day talking. (what they subsequently talked about, my maid couldn't understand so can't feedback to me).
subsequently, my MIL repeated to her neighbour the same old story tat she told the whole wide world including me- that her children (my hubby n her sis) at SIX MONTHS old could HOLD their own milk bottle n drink!!! their nanny just let them lie on the mattress n they drink their own milk bottle!!! how perfect n angelic my hubby n his sister were!!!
any of u mummies, ur bb can drink milk on their own at 6 mths while lying down on a mattress? perhaps some of ur babies can, but my baby cannot. n i definitely won't allow him to lie down on a mattress n drink a milk bottle, what if he chokes?!!
then my MIL commented to her neighbour that my boy v.naughty, very troublesome, difficult, etc, n told her neighbour she rather have her neighbour's 2yr old toddler than my boy. that's is so hurting n insulting. it just shows blatantly to me that she has no love for her own grandchild. firstly she compares her grandchild to her own angelic kids then says that she rather other people's children than her grandchild?!!
sorry... i'm seething with anger n am v.upset about this. coz i love my boy n i didn't bring my boy into a world where he's constantly being compared with others around him, that he's being treated in a condescending manner n i've other people telling my MIL that i'm a lousy mother who dunno how to take care of her own child. excuse me... i'm working so i dun have a choice but to leave my child there in the first place,ok?
though he's just a baby now but nonetheless, the environment that he grows up in is very important. i had cross swords with my hubby b4 about letting maid be at home alone n he doesn't allow coz of safety n i've people who advised me that its better to leave maid with grandparents. but my qn is - i wonder if i should swallow my dignity n let my boy grow up in an environment where it can perhaps be safe but its not a loving environment?
read somewhere that babies at this age need lots of love from us adults. my MIL obviously have no love for him, should i still put him there for the sake of safety? n everyday i come back home, i hear n bleed inside when i'm told that such words are spoken behind my back n my boy is always being compared. i feel that babies are all special individuals n should be loved for who they are n not always be compared against others.
n my MIL never bought a single item for him. the neighbour's maid yesterday saw my boy's anklet n asked my MIL if she bought it for him. she said no, its my mum who gave him. she then asked my MIL what she gave to my boy... she said - give for what? .... oh man... i can't believe that she can be so steady pom pi pi n thick skin. dun even feel paiseh that she didn't give him a single item, just a red packet for his full month, no clothing, no food, no nothing. not that i'm hardup over her things but if grandparents sayang grandchild sure give them little things or if dun give, at least shower them with love which she doesn't, only can criticise that he always cry, can't drink milk on his own, always must carry,etc.
really can cry man.... thus for me, the issue of a working mother is - how to ease childcare arrangements when going back to work? i cannot afford to be SAHM n i wonder if i should be blind, deaf n dumb with regards to ILs n caring of my child? how i wish i can bring my boy to work everyday n let him be cared for there...!
sorry for the long long post coz i'm really v.frustrated n upset inside....