SQ:ya, latch or bottlefeed both BM. and the fact that this time i can sustain this long is already a personal acheivement in itself.. last time with teng at 3 mths, sayonara to attempt to bf liao (and incidentally, i was happier then!
).. this time maybe cause tahan this long.. all the more dun want to let go..
ok. sry to sound whiny lah. no big deal my concern
.. just cannot get thru and decide.. i think i want best of both worlds.. to have YH capable on the breasts as well as by the bottle.. but the boy.. he can't.. he is that kind either breast or bottle kind.. and with the greater issue of his sleep association (last night.. night mare.. woke up three times in the night.. SCREAMING on top of his voice..i wanted to latch him direct coz dunno how much he wants. refused.. i was so frustrated.. end up miser go and make fm.. first waking at 2am, drowned 180ml!, second waking at 4am again? how can that be right? ok. he screamed.. can't settle down.. give him 60fm..then wake up at 630.. scream again.. !).. cannot go this way.. seriously.. then he having so much trouble falling back to sleep.. funny thing is he can fall asleep nicely by himself.. just the stage when light sleep go deep sleep.. he wake up crying. coz he needs help to go to deep sleep again.. i am desperately waiting for him to find his thumb.. that he can self soothe back to sleep.. he rejects the pacifier!!! great. now i dun have an issue with the pacifier.. unlike teng last time.. now i have issue with bao4 bao4!
so u see. once everyone recovered.. (waiting for the blood test results to see if it ia mycoplasama infection.. later tonight update on this).. i need to do something.. i dun want to CIO.. but i see him like that.. i more heartpain.. when i am not heart pain. i am frustrated.. it is not healthy..
SO.. if i do bottle feeding.. i dun have to let him CIO again for direct latching..
if i insist him to latch. then it is twice the CIO for him.. i am undecided.. coz i dunno if there is such a need to ake the child cry. just to have this flexibilty of being able to latch and bottle feed....
BBmarch:yh was hospitalised. that time he was fine with bottle and breat coz i was latching most of the time.. and only 2 bottles a day.. so he was ok.. but when he was hospitalised.. to monitor intake. i pumped.. and since then.. for the past three weeks. he has been on bottles.. coz he refuse to latch.. prefering the bottle for the faster flow.. another thing which makes me blue is i am killing my own ss.. most of the time pumping onli at the 6th hoour interval.. because i always try to wait to latch rayan.. but he refused.. then iget too upset ot pump..
aiya. silly me.. things like that also get vexed.. for what? argh..