I just failed my second IVF cycle. I feel so sad because I had a bit of hope this round would work. It was C grade blastocyst but thawed well and became fully expanded before the transfer. But yet, my AF came the night before blood test.
I feel so sad thinking I had killed 2 embryos so far already this year that can survive in petri dish or even in freezer but die inside me. Does anyone else ever feel this way?
Since 2018, I changed my diet, exercised, ate more protein, ate all the supplements, yet my egg quality is so poor. Although 10-11 eggs can be retrieved each time, I can’t grow beyond 1 or 2 C grade blastocyst for each cycle. I just have to expect this is fact of life of women’s ageing. I am 37. I also feel so guilty for not looking into IVF earlier.
Going to take a break until next year or when I feel ready to tackle my final cycle under government grant. Thinking also whether to change doctor (I have been under Dr Jessie Phoon for 1 failed SO IUI and the past 2 IVF cycles already). But I do like her and the KK Nurses too.
1st cycle, Feb 2020: Puregon
- 11 eggs became 1 day 5 (C) and 1 day 6 (C)
- fresh transfer of 1 day 5 = failed
2nd fresh cycle, Jul 2020: higher dose Puregon + Menopur
- 10 eggs became 1 day 5 (C)
- frozen transfer of 1 day 5 in Sept 2020 = failed
- 1 frozen day 6(C) left from first cycle
just wanted to release my emotions as I don’t have anyone else to talk to except my husband.
Sometimes is better for the bad quality egg to fail at the starting stage rather than MC. I always remind myself this so as to pick myself up again. The ivf journey is difficult and you have done your very best! I realised diff govt hospitals will suggest differently after the failed cycle. I am with SGH and just completed 2 cycles.
May 2019 - G gonal only
12 eggs became 4 eggs (5-day blastocyst and with 2 grade C)
-failed my first cycle
-work stress
Sep 2020 - Menopur + growth hormone + blastgen
18 eggs became 7 eggs (5-day blastocyst and 1 grade C)
-took a year break from work to focus on ivf.
-Since feb, on a daily basis - soak my feet in hot herbal water, heat pad on my womb for blood circulation, eat supplements such as myo-folate, eat veg and fruits, fertility yoga for 20 mins, wear socks to sleep, no cold drinks, drink red dates and wolfberries water, drink pomegranate juice and maintain a positive mind. Also acupuncture and use castor oil pack on monthly basis.
Currently waiting for FET because my hormone level was very high for the last cycle. Dr suggested PGS if I failed the 2nd cycle. I think my 2nd cycle has improved which is why I want to share all these with you. I was as depressed as u too.
Maybe you can try methods to improve blood flow to uterus? My TCM sinseh advise that blood circulation is impt to produce good quality embryo.
If you think your current hospital is not suggesting effective solutions for you. You may want to change hospital soon? Age is catching up and we will not want to waste time. If I fail my 2nd cycle, I will consider to switch to private hospital.
BTW, I am 35 this year.
Jiayou!