@xiaolu stay strong. I never thought I'd rely on this forum so much for support after my m/c.
Work becomes a big blur and I'm googling on miscarriage in the first month after the m/c, why did it happen, D&C or natural, dealing with the emotions of guilt, could it be prevented. I almost burst out crying at work on couple occasions when colleagues said "you should plan for #2. too big an age gap is not good" and "are you pregnant?" (cuz I'm still sporting a big tummy after all that IVF injections) and having to congratulate fellow colleagues who have crossed their first trimesters (are there more preggies than normal because its jubilee year??). I was a zombie. When my boss is giving me a hard time about deliverables and timelines, I feel like telling him "I am really sick inside. I just lost a baby. Every morning, I pull myself out of bed to function normally. Please don't talk to me like I'm normal". That was in the first month and I've somewhat survived that very dark period of my life.
I dreaded the doc review at D&C+5 weeks but I was glad that I dragged myself there and got the doctor's note for the next FET.
My AF just reported at 6.5 weeks and I've lost the bloatedness and weight gain from the IVF drugs. Before today, I kept thinking if my AF would ever not come. Your AF will come soon too and then you can move on.
We would all survive these dark moments. Stay strong. With every step, we're all moving on.