Dear mummies,
I feel that I'm always in great delimna. Not sure what is wrong with me. Nothing seems to work "well" for me ever since my boy is born. I am a SAHM with 21 months old boy.
When I was 1st pregnant with my boy, I was so looking forward to be a SAHM. I have plans on what I should do with my boy when born (eg, activities, swimming, etc) However, things doesn't turn out that way, I realised I can't cope with my boy alone and have been struggling with daily chores. Once in a while will send it to my MIL place for me to take a breather.
I struggled and complained to my hubby and we finally decide to hire a helper when my boy turned one year. God knows, hiring a helper doesn't work out for me too.... felt too tiring training and re-training maids (not lucky enough to get a good maid) and ended up double stress with additional cost incurred.
Then the finally draw was to send him to full day childcare (the childcare we wanted doesn't have hourly/half day care). Now that my boy is in childcare (started one week ago). I now feel depressed and guilty for sending him in childcare.
My point is I really love to take care of my boy myself but seems like my ability doesn't allow me to do so. Moreover I have stop work for quite awhile and now having phobia finding job and work again.
What's wrong with me.... I really don't know.
Any mummies have the same situation as I do? Pls share.