Hi Angel,
My wife and I can relate to your feelings of living day by day. We've been there and we know the pain, the unhappiness and the tears shed....and we feel really sad for you and your husband. The last sentence in your post has really struck me as it shows continued strength in your message despite the tremendous loss. Your experience is truly a pain which I would be ashamed to say, might break the minds and hearts of many people, including my wife and I. I really dont have the answer for you why God allowed bad things to happen to really good people, but sometimes, somehow, based on our experience, it does seem to work out in the end. It will, it must, it should..
I believe you and your husband are nice, warm and generous people who love children as much as everyone else in this thread, something positive will turn up...somehow and somewhere.rest assured you will always be in our prayers.
Have you considered going to MCYS? The MCYS case officer who was attending to our adoption is really a nice lady and we were fortunate to have a sincere case officer. She mentioned that they have lots of children - babies and toodlers from broken families who need a loving home. Its all about matching an appropriate child to a couple. If you and your husband is keen, I can try get you her contact details and hopefully that will start some process at their end.