Hi all mummies,
How is everyone coping with ur respective issues? Lately I was reading an online e-book "Deciding whether or not to get a divorce?" by Karl Augustine. Read the preview and some of his regular tips, haven't gotten much insights, but might be helpful for some to get started.
http://www.deciding-on-divorce.com
I'm now 29weeks into my pregnancy, feeling excited and anxious all at the same time. I started crying again lately whenevr I think of the future of my baby. I cry too when I keep thinking abt my hb and his actions. He hasn't call since his last call on Thu morning. He said he is handling alot of issues in his pub biz, etc. He was supposed to return me sm money on 5Apr, but hv not been able to till now. Sigh, those are the monies I kept aside for my gynae fee, hospitalisation, confinement, baby stuffs..
I know he is having financial problems.. But still.. I really wonder how is it that he can still sponsor his mistress in this state? Maybe he is a even bigger cheat now - who uses my money on his mistress? I dun know. But it's was my own wish to loan him when he came to me.
I am deciding if I shld write a complaint letter to authorities abt his mistress. I noe she return to sg on social visit pass (a filipino) and she actually wan to study here. Wat a joke! She was "freelancing" in a pub & now she found a sponsor, she want to study.. Really, I want to let authorities noe tt there are many such overstayers who wrecks up local homes and families. Wonder if anyone try this before? Wish to send her bac to her country & if my hb loves her so much, he can go stay there with her. Dun wat to even run into them here in our country..
I just felt really pissed tt my hb can sponsor her in her study & life in sg and keep telling me his financial problems at the same time. He really didn't do anything for his baby till now. I really see how irresponsible he is now. All those words he said abt loving me and baby are just words, without any real meaning.
Even if we get a divorce soon after baby is born, I am also doubtful that he will be able to provide us the maintenance or be able to contribute to my baby's life at all.
I really wish to end this misery. Dun wan to go to zzz Every night thinking abt him & his cruel ways.. And wake up every morning feeling sad, betrayed, disappointed, anxious..
Dun even know if he will come and see his baby in the hospital. He didn't dare come near my mum's place, didn't face my family. Sigh.. Going thru emotion roller coaster once again.