Hi kkf,
Thank you for being so concerned.As of Sun,i'll be 33 wks! HOORAY! since 26-31 wks,i've been super cranky.At that time,the weather was so hot,i was on bedrest,it was really taking a toll on me,esp with all the worry.Juz had my 32 wk scan this wk.my little prince is still on 20th percentile growth.At this moment,he's 1.66kg.I'm not as worried anymore,coz he really is growing,juz that he's not a big baby.& i have passed my 'danger' stage.I know i shouldn't be complacent.I'm still counting kicks.but i no longer set my alarm clock for 3am.I no longer force myself to wake up to check in the middle of the night.somehow,i feel more relaxed.It was difficult to 'wean' myself off the 3am wake up call,but mentally,i was already a goner.i figured out if i continued like that,i will go mad.i was so worried abt pre-natal depression at that time.I still do not slp thru' the night coz of toilet breaks.
I ended up at the labour ward twice since wk 26.1st was coz my BP shot up,so i was worried abt pre-eclampsia.2nd time was ard 31 wks,when i didn't feel the baby move much.i was so worried.I asked for a scan at the labour ward juz to see if they can find a reason for the baby not moving.one of the docs came in with a trial machine & asked if he could scan me.that machine was fantastic.he said it cost 30K! it was so clear,he even showed me all the structures of the heart.fr then,i was also more reassured that is nothing wrong with the baby's heart.strangely,he estimated the baby's wt to be 1.7kg(@31 wks).i nearly fell off the bed in shock! haha.coz we have constantly been told our baby is small.he even said everything was along the 50th percentile.so right now,i'm very confused.i put it down to errors in measurement & the different chart used for comparison.i tell myself as long as everytime i get checked,baby's wt increased,i'm putting on wt,that should be fine.
i've been bugging my gynae to tell me when i can deliver.I don't think i want to go to 40 wks.coz i abruptly stopped work,i need to arrange when i'll get back to work,my sis wants to fly back fr overseas to attend my baby's 1st mth party,& i'm thinking of doing the baby's 1st mth party b4 7th mth (better not to clash if possible).so all these needs planning.didn't have a chance to speak to her on that the last time,so will ask her abt it when i next see her.i'm still seeing my gynae wkly & i think this will continue until birth.
u know,i logged onto the desktop once (usually i use my laptop)& hubby came in nervously to tell me there are things i cannot see on the desktop.i saw a few new icons,but i thought it was for his work.in the end,he told me i could see it.guess he's so excited he couldn't keep a secret! he designed a banner for our little boy! my tears welled up when i saw it.it's to welcome our little boy home.& the next thing i knew,the banner was printed out already.he was over the moon when he told me how beautiful the banner is.well,u can see how much he's looking fwd to having this little tiger as well.
& I was chatting with him one day.told him i can't wait to have the baby out coz i'm in a lot of discomfot (well,which expentant mum isn't?).i'm haivng rash on my belly,i had a whole day of cramps (but i was sure it wasn't real contraction,so didn't go hospital) etc....he said we have waited so long for this child,what is 4 more wks....then it dawned on me.how true! we have waited 2.5 yrs for this child.gone thru' life's most painful experiences,gone thru' painful surgery.
well....so here i am.waiting patiently.i'm really counting down.i'm planning 1 activity per wk,be it having a pedicure/meeting friends,cousins etc so that i can look fwd to those events & it will help me pass time.