Thanks babydream: it was quite difficult for me yesterday cos keep seeing big blood clots yesterday. Was feeling angry, cheated why it was a positive yet not a real positive.
But through prayers, managed to calm down and sort out my thoughts. Since doc hasn't confirm it is the end, I am just scaring myself. I just assumed it is the end. And I started to doubt god.
Initially I thought yes means yes. No means no. But I guess not everything goes according tony plan. It is according to his plan. I may not understand but I must trust him.
So managed to feel peace and hope. Woke up today and had encouraging messages from people around me. That really helped.
So everyone dont give up. Continue to find strength through your own faith. In my case, i will continue my prayers for faith, for hope, for strength and for another miracle.