Nanz,
Here we go again, round and round, we are back isn't it?
Anyway, it only shows that you are normal. The first time is always the best??? cos you know nothing, just sotong, following instruction, dunno about side effects, dunno about any complication that IVF brings you. But now that you know one fact that is IVF is not a sure strike thing (30%) therefore always hope for the best, prepare for the worst.
You have strike before, you done tests to show that you can get pregnant, it is only sooner or later, of course it is good to be soon than later cos of mental and financial reasons but then again, if you wanna strike, you have to go thru it, wanna strike TOTO or 4D, you got to go and buy isn't it, just be scare or find it troublesome becos the queue of the Singapore pools line it too long, cos once you strike, the joy that brings you is worth it.
I believe the process itself is okay but is the result that we fear? since it is the result then you have to bear in mind that this time, you got fail again, but next time you got strike, if fail, then do again, if strike then congrats.... celebrate. It is easy said than done to be positive. Just talked to Koala and we all go thru same things, you dun want to be positive not becos you are not positive, just that wanna be more prepare for the worst so that during the process, it is more bearable, frankly speaking, I know how to be positive or how to be negative, but I also know the facts and reality so I learn to accept things as they come, if strike good, if not, either try again or think of other solution or even accept the fact to be childless, either option does not change much for my current life, i still life as happy as possible with my family and my hb, I find joy in other things
I am grateful that I am in singapore now that I can still do IVF in comfort, I am grateful that now I can still pay for my own IVF treatment, I am grateful that I do not suffer great complication or side effects, I am grateful for all the things I have now. But I still think that my chances is only 30% so am i negative???? Go ahead and blah, we miss that from you anyway