Hi,
i would like to thank all of you who had contributed in some way regarding me and my wife....
Really thank you to all of you, esp Angela....
You been really wonderful, i hope i helped you too...
Now i got some updates for all of you...
I somehow felt that i no longer feel any love for my wife anymore... I dunno wat happened or why i suddenly feel like this when over the few days when i started posting i tried all ways trying to save us... But now i supposed i began to face reality and realised its not possible anymore....
Here are the sms she sent to me juz today...
"Ok.i understand now.so,i jus wan to let u know,im playin squash w wy on sun n tues.willie n wife may join us at times.thurs is swimmin w wy.tonite i meetin my sis as she said got sometin to tok to me.so,i mayb canx appt w wy,or meet my sis after swimmin,see how.so,pls dun always anyhow tink.we already say,we remain like now,jus to provide a complete family for our kids,a daddy n mummy.so,tats all.ok?"
"To b frank,i jus wan to concentrate on my work.b it affair or not,i dun care or mind oso.right nw,u r the one who refuse to sign paper,tats y i stay put.but b fair to me too.since u refuse to sign the paper,dan dun interfer into my life n wat im doin or where im goin.i hope i make myself very clear to u."
"I dun wish to fight with u.i jus wan u to b fair to me as i had already give in to u,not to ask u sign paper.since i did tat,u shd b doin the same to me,dun intefer into my life.i jus wan to concentrate on my career n hav my freedom.so,pls giv tat back to me.u too,can hav ur freedom which i will nvr stop.jus discuss among ourselve so we can arrange our schedule to look after our kids if either one of us is goin out.i hope u can understand."
"We r not divorce yet,so we r still husband n wife on legal paper."
"Yes.as i did mention,on legal paper, u r still my husband.why do u ask tis?"
"I know my position n I did not betray u.so,u jus understand tat,i jus wan to focus on my career.so,i dun wan to quarrel w u anymore.can?"
"Lets not quarrel anymore.its bad for the kids.we make it a point to go out together,once in every 2 weeks.ok?other dan tat,dun interfer in each other life.can?"
"U know i will not make love w u again.u dun ever tink about it."
After all this, i think i hv given up hope...
I think its juz not worth it anymore... I may not be very educated neither am i rich... But definately i know someone out there deserves my love more....
However i had taken the oath to take care of her for life... Do you think i should hold on to the oath although we might divorce soon ? Am i silly to hang on ?
Pls tell me wat is my direction now....
Shall i make the move to divorce her ? Or wait till the counselling session ?
Some of you might say DO IT, but frankly i really cant do it...
My character is not the vicious and heartless type...
Wait and suffer in silence ? And maybe one day be made a cuckold ?
I dunno....
Wat shall i do now ? I am really tired.... Exhausted....