wish, take your time. your own emotional well-being is most important! if it upsets you, don't go. do things that make you happy. we all come from the same situation, so definitely can understand. invitation for you girls to come is there, accept or decline is definitely up to you k. hugs!
ecups, don't worry. maybe cos never shoot and aim properly into the test bottle. SA also not once-off means zhun zhun one. sometimes got to re-do quite a few times.