Thanks, ladies. I really dunno who can I talk to seems nobody can understand. I wish it was the hormones but I dun think I'm being unreasonable. It's not easy for us to conceive, but yet once we conceived, he will start to give me all sorts of nonsense. when I'm having my no#1, also like tat. I was even contemplating to divorce and bring up my gal by myself. It takes quite sometime to make things better. He asked me to have more kids, I'm so scared. Cos i know if things happened, I will be on my own again and I dun think I can cope with more than one kid. It takes me years to build up my courage and I did see he has changed. So I give him one more chance. It's back to square one and I'm stucked. Lucky this time I have a maid which is really helpful. I dun have any family support here . I told my mom and she scolded me for being stupid. In such a bad situation, my gal gives me the strength to go on. She can sense my sadness and always comes to hug and kiss me. Tell me she loves me and babies very much. I'm very grateful for this.