Hearing about the wounds is scary!!! I dunno how my Cesar wound is like.... Haven't removed the dressing yet. Gotta go back to gynae this Tuesday to remove. Amazingly though I have been able to do a lot more then I imagine I would be able too.... So should be healing alright.
Rainbowstarz, I experienced those emotions when I had my second child.
Felt bad that I was neglecting my elder boy (almost 4 then).
This time before giving birth I tried to prepare my self for such feelings and in a way i Thot I would not have a strong bond with number 3 coz "no time" to really enjoy him, but since meeting him... I instantly bonded and will carry and have as much skin to skin contact, interaction as time permits. Won't scared whether he will become sticky etc. Just want him to be contended. But I have been emo too... As when I look at baby, it brings back memories of my 9yr old boy and makes me feel bad for all the times I have my struggles with him... Ie education expectations etc.
Feel been neglecting his need as a child to play.... Always micro managing his everyday. Really hate the education system here... Can see why less ppl have kids.
Think the exams Have been stressing me till i was thinking or dreaming (not sure ) my left/right Breast is Chinese or English, during 3am baby milk feed... (I was practically still asleep and fed baby in lie down position for the first time.