big_foot> thanks. oh! hope i didn't cause any misunderstanding. actually, it was just that i felt like i did not manage to complete the pregnancy journey as i had anticipated. kind of like it was being fast-tracked and i didn't get the complete experience. maybe being cheated isn't an appropriate word. but i have friends who told me that it's probably not a 'complete' experience that i would miss. having said that, i remember being all drowsy after the 'birth' to enjoy my newborn. when the nurses brought him over, i was reluctant to hold him cause i was feeling so drowsy and weak that i wasn't sure that i can hold him.