Pegsfur, take a step at a time, dun stress yourself. Think about the benefit of bfding and the bonding with bb, you will press on. I started by telling myself, just for today, then the next day, then 1 week, then 1 month and eventually 18 months where Kai self-weaned coz he saw children drinking fresh milk and from then on it is fresh milk till now. FM is yucky to him haahaa.