jeslyn: think rt now we are more emotional, but it's good u release ur stress by crying rather than bottling up. It's difficult when caught in between colleagues but sometimes it just happen. just know it's NOT your fault ok?
my boss today question me about some finances stuff, so luckily i can cover myself cuz i also knew about it very recently - good thing is we now know the issues, and we can work towards correcting it. problem is i kena crap from the other side and said i must be responsible for the shit that happens and am happening even though it was the way before i came in! i can only lun but i felt it was unfair due to their own neglience, now to cover themselves, email left and rt, except to my boss, that i am responsible for the "lousy" work and "non-adherence" to the policies. anyway i just tell myself, it's ok, they can say wat they wan, as long as i do my job, and make sure my boss understands the PAINS i have with the other side, even though my pay increments and such will be affected cuz the other side has a final say over my bonus etc, it's ok. and if my boss cannot understand, then i'll just leave, cuz i was prepared to quit the company even before i join this dept.
so jeslyn, just hang in there ok?? think of the 16 weeks of bliss once ur ML starts
then u can start thinking if u want to continue working in that place. if u dun wan, then just do wat u need to do so that she cannot say u never do ur job. even if u leave, atleast u leave with a clear conscience, and she can say whatever she wants.
my boy is a bit small at 32 weeks, only 1.7kg ... a bit upset but ok ... he's still v active ... but as usual i'm too tired or busy at work to really pay attn to him. i feel a bit sorry since he's so neglected
prob will deliver by 38 weeks, so tt will be end june ... hopefully my boy will be big and strong enuff by then! been eating durians, beef and chugging cactus juice!
lamieger: i also want to sleep thru the nite, i can but i am worried about my gal when she sleeps on the bed with me (if she falls off) (the stupid hubby rather sleep on the floor than transfer my gal into her bed) and rt now she's coffing, so if she coffs i wake up to make sure she's not choking. then i also wake up to ensure she's not exposing her tummy and she's covered with the blanket ... enjoy this while u can lah ... i slept on average 4 hours a day once i started working again until i stopped breastfeeding ... can't take the stress of pumping and unsupportive colleagues and new portfolio ... hopefully this time round will be better ... investing in a more exp pump